I'll live

Really?

                  ~Sam's POV~

Me and Cory had finished breakfast and as I walk up to the couch to tell colby he was already sleeping.

I didn't wake him up because he looked really sick, even though he said he was fine he was not u could read him like a book

I've been meaning to talk to him about it, he's been off for a couple days or even weeks now and it's staring to make me worried.

Even his eating habits have become bad, he's had struggles with sh in the past but never eating

Yesterday when I still thought he was clean I could see a bit of blood on his wrist that's why I think we need to talk

"hey Sam u okey?"

"yeah why?"

"uve been staring at the wall for the past 10m and ur food is starting to get cold"

"yeah I'm fine, I'm just a bit worried about colby"

"yeah me to he's been off for a couple of days now"

"he's sleeping at least now. I've noticed he stays up way to late"

"hey do u mind going shopping with me for some new stuff"

"yeah sure"

"just to warn u it may take awhile"

"don't worry I need some stuff to"

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As we were driving home I was so tired I know he said it would take while but 6 HOURS!!!!!

Thank God I get to go home and see colby, it was already dark out so I left him a message saying we would be home at 10pm

As we park the car and go inside we trun the light on......

"omg, colby!!"

I run up to him with Corey following behind me.

"colby can u hear me?!"

I shake him a bit and started to wake up

"Sam.....?”

His voice is weak and rough

"hey are u okey I think u passed out or something"

"yeah I think so, what's the time?"

"oh u its 10pm"

I help him sit up and he explains to me how he stood up and his vision going black

"colby can u be honest with me for a second"

"I'll leave u two alone"

As Cory left I nodded my head

"yeah why?"

"have u been eating"

"yeah of course"

"well then when and what was the last u ate"

"last night..... Chips"

"I know ur lying to me colby"

"can you.......... can you just help me to my room?"

"colby we need to talk about this ur never this sick and ur not even eating"

"sam I'm fine!"
"just bring me to my room"

As I look at him there are tear in his ocean bleu eyes

"can u stand?"

"I think so"

I help him up and walk him to his room and lay him down in his bed, I tuck him in and look once more in his beautiful and tear filled eyes

"are u sure ur okey colbs"

"no...... Sam I am not..... Uhm okey I am not okey and there's nothing u can do about it so leave it"

"would u maybe wanne talk about it later"

"okey....."

"now go to sleep ur sick and need to rest"

After he closes his eyes I walk out the room to my room and fall down

I've actually been think for a while now that maybe I have feelings or something for colby, I mean I don't even know my sexuality let along knowing if I have a crush or not

And then I fall asleep