I'll live

Decision

<colby's pov>

I must have fallen asleep while the roommates were gone but I was awoken by someone tapping on my shoulder

"colby"

Sam says

"what"

"it's 9:30, we need to make a decision"

"can't you guys just make the decision I really don't care"

"no this is about you colby"

"well what do I have to choose?"

Elton was about to say something but Jake cut him off

"well it's either hospitalized or at home and chemo or laser therapy"

"I guess home and chemo"

"you sure? You will lose your hair with chemo"

"yeah but whith laser I will be even more sick"

"fair enough"

"elton why are you so mad at me"

"I'm not mad at you I'm mad at the fact you have cancer"

"does my cancer really effect you guys that much?"

"if course, you are our best friend obviously it effects us"

Cory said

"thank you but I don't want to ruin your lives just by my existence"

"how would that ruin our lives?"

"you will basically have to take care of me, I won't be able to drive to my appointments and maybe I don't even recover at all and die"

"don't say that! I will drive you to every appointment I will sit by u during every chemo and I will take care of u!"

"but I want you to live, see the world, explore not sitting by ur sick friend because you feel the need you have to"

"that's where your wrong we don't feel the need we have to because we care for you"

Elton says with a sad smile on his face and a single tear falling from his cheeks

"okay, but I still want you to live"

"of course but only if you will too"

"how can I live like this"

"you can! Just accept our help"

"okay then I will"

"okay"

Our conversation was interrupted by a knock on the door and the nurse coming back in

"Mr. Brock?"

"yes?"

"have you made your decision?"

"yes and I would like chemo and stay home"

"okey here are some papers you need to sign plus your schedule plus the medecation you need to get at the pharmacy"

"okey thanks"

I sign the papers and try to stand up after they had removed all the wires that were on me

I almost fell standing up so I try to get balance by leaning on to a chair

There was no one to help me, the roommates went to the pharmacy to get my medication and the button for help is on the other side of the bed

As I'm leaning onto the chair I realised how unstable it was. As I try again to gain my balance

I let go of the chair struggling at first but finally make my way to the bathroom

I grab a pair of Grey sweatpants and a black hoodie and some socks

I struggle with changing my clothes but I get there in the end, I start to feel dizzy and sick

Do I wanted to make my way to the bed but I couldn't, I didn't have a the strength or time before I would pass out

I held onto my sink hoping the feeling of passing out would pass but it didnt it only got worse and worse until I was on the floor

My eyes couldn't stay open for much longer so I tried to grab my phone to ask for help but it was pointless

I was gone

I was in a peaceful state of mind, i was free, I have always loved sleeping and dreaming

It is very calming to me

But my sleep was Interuppted by my name being called again