I'll live

Wake Up

                 ~Sam's POV~

What I just saw, I can't get it out of my mind. Why would colby do anything like that

I knew he wasn't okey, we shouldn't have yelled now he's laying on his bed with bandages around his arm and sick

How could I not have seen the sings earlier and stop it from getting worse

I was snapped out of my thoughts by the frond door opening and elton shouting

"I'm back an I brought Jake to!"

I walk down the stairs to greet my roommates

"hey Sam u okey"

Jake could probably tell I've been crying

"yeah, but we need to talk about colby so let's sit down"

My tone of voice worried them, Cory was out with his mom shopping so I would be the one to explain all of this

"what's wrong"

Elton asks after we've all sat down on the couch

"colby is uhm"
"colby's not okey"

"what do u mean is he sick?"

"well yes he's sick but........
He's also kinda depressed, uhm I found him bleeding out this morning"

"what do u mean depressed and how was he bleeding out?"

"wel he uhm... he slit his wrist"

It fell silent after that

"WHAIT HE WHAT!!"

"elton calm down its not his fault"

"I know but one of my best friends is cutting himself and I didnt help or even know!"

"it's not ur fault either elton"

"is he okey?"

Jake asks

"no he is not not mentally or physically"

"what do u mean physically"

"well he's been like really sick, he's been passing out and has a fever"

"we should get him checked out"

"yeah probably but he's sleeping now, wich is good because he doesn't sleep often anymore"

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Colby's POV

As I start to wake up I feel a stinging in my head and my ears are ringing

When I sat up I could feel something on my wrists, bandegas?

And then I remembered everything that happend, I was struck with anxiety

I tried to sit up but I was hit with the feeliend of throwing up, I could feel it rise in my stomach so I ran into my bathroom and let all out

When I was done I flushed the toilet and went downstairs, I was surprised that there was still something in my stomach

When I made my way down the stairs I saw Sam, Jake and elton staring at me

The all had tears in they're eyes I tried to ignore them and walk up to the kitchen for water

"is it treu"

I turn around with confusion after elton's words

"what is?"

"did u facking slit ur wrists"

"what the actual fack sam"
"u told them"

"I had to say it"

"u facking backstabber"
"first u facking force me to show u my wrist and face and now ur telling every facking person I tried to facking kill myself!"

"u are not okey colby"
"ur sick in ur head and ur body is full of scars u probably don't even eat!"

Those words hit harder then any other, out of anger I grabbed my keys and ran out the door

I started my car and drove of I didn't even have a destination in mind but I was just riding

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