Dive into my mind, don't drown.

9:26 PM

It's coming up to nearly 2 weeks of knowing you.

We don't really know each other yet, but I already like you as a person.

And a small part of me is hoping that you'll stay.

I know I'm only fooling myself, by saying that, by thinking that.

I'm trying to be cautious this time, my experiences in the past with people haven't been that good.

And maybe if you stay long enough, you find out about them.

I hate having to meet new people and get to know new people.

I like you, but I'm afraid.

You remind me of some I used to think I knew.

Someone who I left not that long ago.

And it still hurts a little, I think it's always going to hurt, right?

But you remind me of them, and I know that's bad of me to compare, and it seems like I'm calling you a bad person but so far you've shown that you're not.

I know I said that I'm hoping that you'll stay, yet I'm kind of hoping you don't.

Because the truth is I barely have enough energy for myself, so I'm not sure I have the energy for another person.

I'm hoping you don't stay because there are sides and parts to me that are the complete opposite of what you normally see.

Sometimes the person I show you, is not me.

I don't want you to think I'm tricking you, or trying to make you seem like you're a fool or you're naive.

But I hide. Everything. I hide, everything about me.

I've learned that it's just best to hide. And yeah, hiding can get boring sometimes.

But you learn to live with it.

It's coming up to nearly 2 weeks of knowing you.

We don't know each other that much yet.

But I would like to.

- Owl.