Dive into my mind, don't drown.

1:57 AM

You messed with the puzzle in my head.

The pieces were neat and sorted into piles,

All I had to do was figure out where they go.

But you came along and you made it look like you knew what you were doing,

Like you were helping.

But you were an illusion.

You mixed up the piles, and now

I'm a mess. My head is a mess.

Because I... miss you.

And I shouldn't.

I feel the need to say sorry,

But I have NOTHING TO BE SORRY FOR!

Part of me wants you but doesn't need you.

I only think I need you.

Part of me wants you to destroy me,

FINISH WHAT YOU STARTED!

OR fix me. Please. FUUCCK!!

Part of me wants to hurt you.

physically, mentally, emotionally, and verbally.

To humiliate you,

Embarrass you,

Make you BEG for me to stop.

But I wouldn't because you DID THIS.

I know that that part is not me.

Because my intentions were never to hurt you,

And still aren't.

At least, I don't think they are. Right?

But I wouldn't mind seeing you in pain.

Are you happy? With what you've done?

I hope you are.

Then at least one of us gets some satisfaction.

And all this isn't for nothing.

I tried. I did.

I thought I had moved on.

But it seems no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try to distract myself, something always reminded me of you. Whether it's a song or word you used the most or even something that you hated.

The world doesn't look the same through my eyes anymore.

It has been tainted by you.

I have been corrupted by you.

I am SO close, to asking you to try again.

To beg you to ruin me,

Take everything that I have,

Strip me of everything that I am, the things that make me, me.

Till I no longer know who I am and I need you for the simplest of things, that I could once do on my own.

no.

I don't want this.

I don't want you.

Please,

I'm sorry.

-Owl.