Alive (Louis Tomlinson)

Chapter 42

I walked down the halls in a better mood than usual. I had just finished my last exam for the semester and now I was all done. I was finally home free. Just as I thought this I heard two voices behind me whispering and I'm pretty positive I heard my name. I listened closer and sure enough they were talking about me.

"That's the girl who tried to kill herself just because Louis broke up with her, how pathetic huh?"

"Seriously," the other girl said. I took that time to put my middle finger up over shoulder, making the whispering stop.

Yes the word did get around that I was in the hospital for allegedly killing myself because I got my sorry butt dumped, how that happened I didn't know but, I've been stared at and been whispered about so many times this week.

I have heard Louis got in a fight and broke someones nose but those are just rumors right?

"Amy!" Oh no. No, no, no. I pick up my pace but he calls after me again. I couldn't avoid him forever could I? A small part of me believed I could. "Hey," he says touching my shoulder, sending a blast of heat through my body.

He comes in front of me a little out of breathe from running down the hallway to chase after me.

"Why do you keep running away from me?" Because I want you so bad and I want you back.

"I'm not."

"I'm not an idiot, Am. Look can we go talk somewhere or something. Please." I took a look around at the crowded hallway, I don't think I could trust myself being alone with him.

"Why not here?"

"Don't be ridiculous," he says grabbing my hand, leading me away. My heart rate picks up and I try to keep my breathing even.

He walks a little ways before opening a door and pulling me inside with him. It's a very small closet, very small. Our chests are almost touching and he knows exactly what he's doing, that's why he did it.

I try to keep my face neutral but who am I kidding?

"You're miserable," I try to interject but he stops me, "I'm miserable." He's not supposed to be, only I am. I voice my thoughts.

"You're not supposed to be miserable."

"Well I am okay? You can't change that. You left me Amy and I don't want it. Me and you, we were good. We worked good together and now you have this crazy theory in your head that you're a monster, not deserving of anything. And I made you feel that way, I said those God awful things that made you realize something that's not true. I will never forgive myself for that, so please let me try and make it up to you, let me try to save you from yourself and if not for yourself for me. I need you." He had me crying now. When did I turn into such a ball baby?

"I want to. I really really want to but,"

"But what? There is no buts, you want this and so do I."

"I don't want you to have to deal with all my problems I don't want to put that weight on you." I'm caving I really am caving.

"No baby, it's not like that." He takes a step closer to me if that's even possible and takes my face in his hands, looking me straight in the eyes. "It's no weight I want to help you, I really do. I can't live with the fact, knowing you hate yourself." I'm going to do it, I'm going to give in.

"I-" I'm cut off by the door opening, revealing a professor. Uh oh.

"Mr. Tomlinson I'm going to need you to come with me." What the? Louis looks at me then to the professor. "Now." He says with more force. Louis steps away from me and walks out of the closet, following the professor. What is going on?

I'm left standing there alone wondering what the hell is going on?