Maejins vision was on her phone as she dressed, as much as she wanted to check on Hyunjin she couldn't. Bang Chan would visit Soobin today, but she had to patiently go to work. She'd work harder today, she promised even though she tries to give her everything every day. The risk to loose the Job was too big to skip for another day.
Scenarios ran through her head of what they'd do to him. Was it too late, no it couldn't be. Her breathing quickened as she just kept going to get ready.
Her lungs felt irritated as the cold air from the outside filled them.
She unbuttoned her shirt a bit closing her eyes.
"I can do this" she slowly started to walk forward as suddenly a finger tapped her shoulder "uhm excuse me, I've been calling for you few times how" she immediately turned around, don't realising that she was a bit drawn away.
"Oh I'm sorry" her first impression only showed a man that faced his phone, it had Google maps open as he pointed on a street "I've been trying to fin..." his voice slowly faded away as she got to get a proper look of him. She could never forget this face, not in 100 years.
Just when she got to breathe again it hitched, as her heart beated faster than ever. It was like a bad trauma entered her again and covered her tight like a too thick blanket in summer. She just stared at the man as she didn't move "Are you alright?" He confused raised his eyebrows giving her a sort of weird look. One foot automatically placed itself to take a step back. As her legs were uneasy and shaky.
"I-I don't think I can help" She stuttered turning around as she walked away faster than she could.
The way to the bus was in fact only 2 minutes left to walk, but since she forgot to slow her walk down and her mind was not really presence, it felt like forever.
Minho patiently waited at the bus stop for her. Of course the situation was messed up, but after the hug yesterday he felt like she automatically gave him a new chance. Not forgetting the kiss from her side before that, when she did that his stomach did flips and it somehow felt like their first one. Just thinking about it made him smile like an idiot, nice she got to distract his mind a bit thinking about what is going on in the moment.
But what caught his eye was a total blown away Maejin. She came staring forward as he weirdly greeted her unsure what the problem was. Maybe it was Hyunjin or something like that, maybe work. Maybe everything?
"Are you alright?" He questioned
Are you alright?
Alright?
The voice of her father ringed through her ears "what?" She blinked facing him "ah yea"
"Did anything happen?" He frowned "the bus comes" she pointed out.
Minho was about the enter right behind her as he basically felt a stare of someone from the right. He couldn't help but turn his head while taking the first step. A man, that seemed around 70 faced him but soon turned around. He wasn't walking, just standing, which made it quite obvious. First Minho assumed he could be one of them, but on the other hand he seemed too fragile.
Minho followed her inside and was ready to sit beside her, until he spotted her taking a single seat staring out the window. He knew something was wrong.
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"You didn't get my message?" Mi-ra asked "my phone doesn't work these days" Maejin lied looking at the computer screen "well since you are already working on this project, would you mind joining the meeting today instead of me? I didn't quite keep up since it isn't m-" Maejin stopped her from talking "do as you like, I'll take over if its necessary" she agreed even though she had enough to do. "Wait are you sure? Thank you so much"
She for 4 hours was just focusing on the screen, afterwards controlled papers. Her head kept hurting as she tried to keep herself relaxed and distracted with work. As she organised a stack of paper to join the meeting she spotted a drop of blood landing on the upper paper "oh Maejin, your nose" Mi-ra pointed out as she handed her a tissue "ah it's nothing" She quickly leaned her head back placing the tissue under her nose "I'll go now" every eye in the room followed her with a guilty expression.
6 hours later she finally finished up the last bit. Maejin turned the computer off as her eyes had to get used to the dimmed light, it was already getting dark outside and mostly everyone had left. She stood up as she grabbed her desk for support. She felt dizzy and could feel her eyes closing automatically from tiredness. She couldn't sleep well last night, neither eat well. But her brain needed it more than ever. She just wouldn't understand it.
She walked around outside as it was quite crowded, many people crossing the streets just as many as passing cars. She already reached the last street to cross spotting her bus stop. Suddenly she felt her headache kick in as she covered her forehead with her hand squeezing her eyes. It could've been worse, but it wasn't pleasing either. She rummaged in her back searching for pain killers as she finally found it. She opened it as her hand loosed its grip and they all fell down over the floor, no one noticed.. no one cared.
"Just like always right? No one ever cares about you" Maejin hecticly looked around thinking she heard a voice. "Wow I'm really going crazy" she rubbed her eyes going down to the floor wanting to pick each one up.
"You've gotten so weak... no honestly you always were" this time she was sure she heard something as she immediately stood up again. "You were keeping it all in weren't you? All the pain? Frustration? Or maybe... depression. You are affecting people around you" she covered her ears with both of her hands wanting it to stop "you always were a parasite, you were poor" it sounded like an evil mischievous person trying to bring her down, it almost sounded like a bully "stop it" she begged as a tear rolled down her cheek "you should've jumped from that rooftop. Your dad would've cared anyway", "please stop" she cried out rubbing her ears.
"Yeah beg... like you always do. You are alone. No one is there to save you this time-", "Maejin!" It shouted as someone shock her shoulders. Minho... her eyes rolled back as everything went black.
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