Minho walked out of his appartment as he threw a glare at hers. She was hopefully still sleeping, she should rest.
Darkness... nothing else... wait.
"Who are you?" I questioned staring at a reflection of myself. Almost identical, but a difference was definitely noticeable. "I am you Maejin. The 'you' that you're trying to ignore. The evil and sad thoughts craved in your mind at the deepest spot unable to find. I was hiding for quite long" my reflection smiled at me. "Leave me alone. I don't want you to come out, stay hidden, just like I told you" I ordered "I'm free, I don't Listen to you anymore. You set me free. It was you alone. No wait, that was me" it said "you aren't me, we ain't one" I raised my voice "oh you're wrong. We are one, don't deny me anymore. But don't worry we can work together, I'll take over the control, you will suffer a bit and at the end you will drown into your self-pity. Give up, the smile you always drew onto your face was never real. Its time to face the truth" I shock my head "I'll stay strong I will not let that happen to myself. I will find help an-", "aw come on. Your stupid boyfriend really thinks you aren't normal. He thinks you're going crazy. Wants to send you to get 'help'. But be for real, you can't even help yourself. You are dragging him down with you, because of you Hyunjin is taken and Minho will soon die too. Maybe they'll take you first and everybody will suffer, just because of you. You weren't good enough for your parents. School. Teachers. Society. Minho. And neither anyone else. Be honest, when did you ever hear 'good job' or 'I'm proud of you' people never say anything because they think it's for sure, it's a miserable world we live in. Some people are born to change things, be happy, rich or important. But you are different you never had luck, it's okay though you can just give up. No one would care anyw-"
"Shut up!" I rammed my fist against the reflection, long cracks developed which spread through the whole dark room. "You think you got rid of me?" I looked around as the whole room seemed to break completely "what you are saying is not true. There are enough people that care about me! And I will never let you take control over me, even though I might've got sensitive and you made me think I'm weak once, doesn't mean that I won't be ready to prevent that" I shouted "your optimism disgusts me" it scoffed "you are the worst emotion I ever felt" I upsetly shouted at it "I know" it chuckled "wait... this is just a dream", "of course it is. This is all in your head. Didn't I tell you this. I am an emotion... or are you really going crazy?" It questioned. I need to wake up... wake up Maejin... Wake Up!
The girl immediately sat up from her bed breathing out heavily as sweat ran down her forehead. "What.." She exhaled "..the fuck"
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"Oh look at this, it's raining" Someone pointed out as Minho faced the window "I didn't bring my umbrella. The weather said it would be sunny", "these days you can trust no one" Minho mumbled. Suddenly his phone rang. Unknown number. "Excuse me" he said as he picked it up.
"Hello?" First no response "Minho" a shaky voice spoke up, as he immediately grabbed his jacket. "Where are you going?", "It's raining"
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Fast knocking at the door filled her room as she only took one step to open. A completely soaked Minho stood there. She felt guilty for calling him "Why did you come all the way?" She frowned looking him up and down "you sounded scared, I didn't know what possibly could've happened. Nevermind now I'm here anyway" he entered "did I take your time away?", "I was going to go home anyway" he responded "but it's early in the morning how come you" she faced the clock '4 pm', "early? What are you talking about" his voice got quieter as he faced her undone bed, headache pills on her nightstand and lastly her. She looked messy and pale... again.
His face softened as he shakily blinked "what" he mumbled "did you sleep until now?" She nodded "I thought it was still around eleven" she admitted.
His eyes wandered over to the telephone she used to call him. "What happened?" He faced her with a somehow afraid expression "did you hear the voices again? Do you have headache" She got real quiet. When he first entered she seemed more like she was trying to look normal until he could sense her trying to hardly prevent tears falling. She bit her lip looking up as one almost unnoticeable tear fell down. "It said that..." she started to open up about it "..that no one cares"
Poor Maejin. She looks so tired.
"I care. You know I care. What makes you think people wouldn't", "I'm so scared Minho, I don't want to loose control" she moved forward and sank into his arms "then don't let it happen. Stay resistant Maejin, I know you can do that. You did it for so long" He whispered caressing her back "I know, but what if I can't hold it in anymore?", "You are strong Maejin, you always were. I'm so proud of you" she closed her eyes as she melted into his embrace.
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Minho held the girl close to his chest as her head layed on his arm and his other arm around her torso. She seemed to sleep again, but this time for real and more relaxed. The boy was more than worried, he felt helpless and mad that she had to feel that way. Was she really thinking no one would be there for her? Or was this more referring to her past. Maybe many memories came back by the sight of her dad. Could be.
He moved a bit away looking at her face as he removed a string of hair "nothing will happen to you" he whispered after carefully pulling her back into his arms. He placed one leg over hers wanting to be as close as possible "I won't let you go again Maejin-ah" the first tear in two years rolled down in cheek. He wasn't surprised by it though, he never felt more sorry for someone and truly never loved any one as much her.
I want you to have the life I never had. But even when you smile I can see in your eyes that you actually want to cry. But don't worry I will prevent every following tear. Never I will leave you again, you will be healthy, happy and get old with me. I promise, this time for real. I wouldn't forget myself for leaving you another time.
He felt her arms hugging him tighter as he couldn't help but return her actions "Don't cry" she mumbled as he had to close his eyes to hold them back "we both won't cry" he said while the last tear on Maejins cheek dried "right. We won't" she smiled.
I will, you will. Let's not promise each other anything.
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