Really pretty
His sleeping face kept her mind clear somehow. She carefully lifted his one remaining arm over her away and sat up. She heard him move as he woke up "You're awake" she gave him a pressed smile "don't smile if you don't feel like it. You don't have to be someone else around me" Minho grabbed her wrist and pulled her back down so she landed right infront of his face. He eyes focused on hers as she never felt more in love "I like you for who you are" he added and placed a peck on her nose. Those words felt like they didn't only apply to the fake smiling but to her in person, considering all of her problems. She knew he wouldn't leave her, but hearing that he really doesn't mind those things about her felt nice to hear.
"Mh" she hummed in response. Suddenly his expression got more serious "About this night.." he whispered since they were close enough. She knew what he was trying to say, but somehow she was hoping for not to mention it ".. I can't ignore it. It really seemed.. more intense this time" she just slightly nodded "I don't want to burden you but... do you want to, tell me too?" He carefully questioned. "I know you're planning on visiting the therapist again but I just feel like I'm the first person after her that you might trust" he said "not after her. You are the first person... I get you, and I know that it's probably hard for you just to watch. But... I might sound crazy going in detail" she answered breaking eye contact "crazy? You could never be crazy to me. You could tell me the weirdest stories and I'd believe you" she smiled at that "I know. It's just, even for me... just stupid to think about it" he sat up "Maejin.." a sigh escaped him.
"I just... want to forget it" she shakily told him "I know you want to but" he took her hand "it could happen again. It's awful just to watch, I wanna know what's really happening" Maejin lifted herself up too. "Do you... think it's that easy? Do you think I don't want to tell you about it? But if I would it would mean that I'll tell you about my darkest self that even I can't accept. Those thoughts I have are awful.. against everyone. That's what it wants though, for me to end up alone keeping everything to myself. But, but I can't help it. I'm just used to think negative about everything, I always think about good things first but just going further into it makes me realise the bad things about it. Just because I smile doesn't mean I really feel like it" she upsetly almost let everything in one breath out.
Maybe too much information that she didn't want to admit. She wants someone to listen to her so bad, but feels like she'd burden them too much. Minho looked sort of overwhelmed as his eyes didn't know on which of hers to focus on. "I didn't mean to say that" she broke the moment of silence as she disappeared leaving the room as quick as she could.
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"What? Did he do that to you again?" Ji-ah pushed her hand away that gently pulled a string of hair to the side. "Ji-ah we gotta go to the police" Kyung-ja told her concerned "what do you think they will do? They can't help me, it will only make it worse!" She whined "no, I promise it won't. Let's just-", "you-you can help me though" Ji-ah took her hands "you are with those girls who you get drugs for, right?" Kyung-ja's breath got stuck in her lungs "w-what?", "let me meet them and.. and they may can give me some helpful stuff so I can.." Ji-ah never looked like this before. The way her eyes flickered and the hopeful little smile she put on so she could get through this.
"You-you wanna kill him?", "no, just... get him onto a really worse drug" she told her "I don't think revenge is the right way to handle this" Kyung-ja unsure looked around "Don't you get it? We'll always stay losers, always getting used and look like shy lambs you need to protect. And you know what. I'm so Sick of it! What could get worse anyway, it's our time to finally proof that we aren't that fragile" She looked at her hopeless. Hearing this from her own sister hurt a lot. Her talking about Kyung-ja being a Loser was like a punch in the face. She never wanted her sister to go through this especially since she was still in school. Mom and dad won't be there to help, she knew it. She was the only one that could take care of her. But Ji-ah always rejected affection. She was embarrassed when her older sister sometimes came to pick her up and rather took the bus to get home. She at least wanted a good payed Job so she could give Ji-ah a better future, but she only was able to get at the money she needed from girls that used her badly. One day Ji-ah found out about that and that she went through all the same. She ignored her for that. Kyung-ja didn't know back then that her younger sister sometimes got a little bullied too.
