Self Harm :/

Backstory

     I was 12 years old. i dealt with anxiety not know i also had other mental conditions. I was lost in school, panic attacks at night, struggling to keep organized and healthy. My only happiness was from a boy. He was amazing to me and i cared for him a lot we had been dating for 3 months. He was always there for me and supported me. Until something happened.

     My boyfriend broke up with me. I cried and had panic attacks and couldn't sleep. i struggled really bad with me. I want people to understand they are not alone and there are people there for them because that's how i felt for a while. I was getting looks the next day because i got broken by the "popular" kid. What i thought was a forever thing wasn't. That day my head was kept down. Only wearing a hoodie, sweats, un brushed hair, and no makeup.

     I felt so lost in my head like there was nothing to live for. that was the first day i ever felt suicidal. I didn't understand it or know how i felt and now i understand. I stated to my friend "what's the point in life if i will just loose everyone i ever care for?" I wanted the pain to stop because i wanted him back so bad but he moved on from me. I tried getting back on track but i couldn't all i could think was wow he's really gone. Am i dreaming?

(the first chapter was short this is my first story i hope in the future they will be longer :) and just know your never alone in life, and you have meaning and it's ok to ask for help, because you are not alone :)