An apology is all we needed..

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Chapter 8

Tired, all i am right now is tired but not physically.. Mentally. I wish all these bad days ended and I had a happy life...just like when I was a child. I was sitting in my room staring at a blank wall, almost zoning out. Then I heard knocking on my bedroom door, "Who is it?" I said blankly, pondering who knocked on my door. "It's me, Light and uhm... Levi," Light said as his voice faded when saying his name
"Ever since your birthday you haven't gone out of your room, I told Levi about it and he seems concerned," Light said, pausing then starting to speak again,"So am I.." he added.
, ''It's true I haven't left my room since 28th, it's the 30th.' I thought, chewing on my bottom lip and wondering if I should let them in.

But..why was he here, Light said he is concerned, concerned about what? He should have no right to be concerned about me, but of course it is not possible. "Luca? Can we please come in?" I knew if I said no they would still be pleading me to open the door. I got up and twisted the door knob just enough for it to be open then I went and jumped on my bed again.

Light opened the door and went in, so did Levi. Light sat beside me and So did Levi.
"Please tell us what is wrong..we both really want to know and as your brother I want
To do anything to change whatever is bothering you." Levi said, he sounded so concerned
Is he really worried..? I started to tear up thinking about it, why.. Why am I so sensitive?..
Levi reached his arm towards me trying to comfort me "don't touch me!" I yelled "if y'all really want to know what is wrong with me fine! I am not ok. I am tired of all of this. I never want my life to be this bad and yet IT WAS WORSE THAN BEFORE!" I began to cry even more. "And you know who caused all of this!? That's right you! You, Levi! You messed me up so bad!...I want to END it all right here.. r-right now.." my voice began to turn wobbly and weak.

I have said too much.

"Luca..I.." Levi stammered,trying to reach out for me but I just backed away, hugging my arms. I couldn't talk. I just sat completely still, I just had so many emotions overflowing my body that they just decided to spill. And I couldn't do anything about it. Crying was all I could do.

Levi thought of this as a chance to bring me closer to him and hug me to try to comfort me, but I tried to protest, trying to fight back, but I was too concerned about my sadness. "L-Let me g-go" I stuttered, sobbing into his shoulder. I couldn't move. I was too weak and just let myself sink into his comfort. " I am sorry... I'm so sorry.. I really am," he kept on repeating, rubbing my back in comfort. I couldn't move, I could but it felt as if I was frozen. All I could do was stare into space while he was hugging me.
He, the natural raven black and off white dyed haired brother with soft blue eyes, the person I once thought was the devil's son, hugging me. The last person I thought would be this kind to me. Sitting in my bed while I cry my broken soul and heart out, comforting me.

I soon started to get tired of fighting his comfort and soon became exhausted, resulting in me drifting into a deep sleep, and the next day I forgot everything that happened. Except one detail about it. Him comforting me. The warmth I felt was indescribable, something I needed years ago. "What day is it.." I mumbled to myself just loud enough for myself to hear, I checked my phone and I saw it was the 31st of October
As I saw this I heard someone outside my room say "Happy birthday Levi!

It was Charli, right it was his birthday, my heart was telling me to stay in my room but my brain was telling me to go outside. I for some reason chose to go outside, I got out of bed and got dressed. Since I was not going anywhere I chose a casual 'in home' outfit. I was a mess. My hair was all over the place and my eyes looked very tired..tired of crying, puffy red eyes, like a child..

The corners of my eyes were a dark red, that is what I get for being such a sensitive b!tch..The only thing I could do was to fix my hair a bit as I was brushing my hair. Tears wanted to build up but I just wiped my eyes, wiping the non-existent tears away. I thought to myself that I wanted to go outside just 'admiring' the view from the house's porch instead of going to see what was going on in the kitchen.