An apology is all we needed..

9 pt 1

Chapter 9
(part one)

  As I woke up, I heard the sound of birds chirping. As a kid I thought about how "majestic" the singing of birds sounded but I now find it annoying. The sound irritates me as I get awakened by the tweets of the birds. Other than that I woke myself up and decided to get ready..

Ready for what? I stood there thinking for a minute, trying to remember what I was waking up for. I turned on my phone to check what time it was and it was 5 in the morning, then my teddy bear was laying on my bed. Then I remembered..

  "Levi!"

I was supposed to go to the airport to look for Levi so I could say goodbye and to apologize for my rude behavior towards him..

I can't believe I was so naive thinking that levi was still a bad person and that I only just realized when he was leaving. My goodness, why am I so stupid?! But I don't have time to cry and sit hear, just waiting for him to beg for forgiveness..
  Then I stood up and grabbed things that seemed the most important. Which were a list of my phone, my wallet, and a coat, just in case.

I Didn't realize it but I had been crying, and as I noticed I wiped those tears away and made my way out of the house. Before I made my way out of the house, I grabbed car keys and house keys, then closed the door behind me as I exited the house. My rushed footsteps could be heard as Light looked back at me from his garden.
  "Where are you heading, Luca?" Light asked, taking his attention off of his garden and turning his head towards me. But I didn't say anything as I was too focused on meeting Levi as soon as possible.

  I jumped into the car and as soon as I turned the car on, I drove off. It was still early in the morning, it was somewhat dark and the street lights were still on, I then began to think about the times me and Levi used to be inseparable and always stuck together. We always went on walks to the arcade, parks, and other entertaining places. Sometimes we would just walk to get fresh air.

I looked over at the time and saw that I only had an hour left.  Yet it takes like 45 minutes to get to the airport and I'd have to look fast. While I was driving, I didn't realize it but I started to speed and and drive past cars. I really wasn't focusing on my speed except focusing on my direction. Of course, I wasn't driving over the speed limit but still fast enough to make it a few minutes earlier than expected.

  Warm colors blazed in the sky, reds, oranges, and yellows. A sunrise. When Levi and I were younger, we used to go on walks and wake up early just to watch the sunrises at the park, or go during the afternoon and watch the sun disappear and go light up someone else's day. It caused me to smile as I remembered all of those happy memories.

  But I couldn't care less about the view or my childhood,I just wanted to make it in time. In time to see him. In time to apologize. In time to give him my forgiveness. I just can't bear the thought of his guilt growing anymore. Or mine either. I wanted to apologize for being childish and a selfish freak. Without thinking I started to speed even more as I entered the freeway.

  All of those memories. They started to become blurry. No. My view started to become blurry. I felt water fall down my cheeks as I thought of those times. We were so happy. Why did it all go wrong? Why? I did not know what to feel anymore, anger, sadness. I didn't know, but I then felt tears fall, like the cascades of Florida in the summer sunshine.

  I tried to wipe the tears away but they just couldn't stop. Maybe some music can calm me down. As I looked at the road, I started to see clouds moving, wind blowing, and the sun rising to the top. Once I had put music on, I opened the window. Maybe the wind can dry my tears.

  As I was steering the wheel, I smiled. I don't know why. But I just did. I felt the wind brush past my face. As I did all of these unexpected things, I could see that I was getting closer to the airport.

  As I entered the airport's parking lot, I could see the building become clear and I rushed to find a parking spot. As soon as I parked, I grabbed my things and got out of the car.
  I could still feel water dripping on me but honestly I didn't care. I just rushed into the building and didn't think of it. It was probably me still crying.

  People. Oh so many people were here but I could not see my own brother. I started to look everywhere. I looked around seats, around the vending machines, ANYWHERE. But I still could find him.

"Kshhh- Florida to Texas flight departing soon! Kshh."

That was the intercom of the airport. I didn't put any thought into it and just continued scavenging for- wait. That is Levi's flight! I think the intercom that the flight is departing soon. Soon? That could be a few minutes-

"Correction- departing in 5 minutes! Kshh"

Oh. Ummm, can it read minds? Eh- nevermind. Now I know how many minutes I have at least. Ok back to my objective and to what I was here for, I have to find Levi. As I was thinking that thought, I caught a glimpse of something familiar- well, more like someone familiar. I turned around as I had seen the person walk past me and I saw that it was a person with black hair, headphones, and bangs that were dyed a white color. Like my hair.

My eyes widened as I recognized that person. It was none other than Levi! I gasped- it was loud enough to attract some attention- but I did not care. All I wanted was to get his attention

  I began to walk- no- speed walk his way, and tapped him on the shoulders. Levi then turned around and looked back at the person who had tapped him on his shoulder.
"Luca!? What the hell are you doing here? I need to leave in a few minutes. Why would you care anyways.." Levi said. " I do care! I care that you are leaving. I don't want you to leave, please just stay!" I said desperately  " I can't luca...I-..."

" Florida to Texas flight will be ready to take off in one minute, Florida to Texas will be ready to take off in one minute.

When Levi heard the intercom lady speak he stood up and left, he didn't say anything else. Not even a goodbye.

He left me standing there looking stupid, but it was fine he had to leave anyway. I slowly looked down at my shoes thinking about what I could've done....

I suddenly felt like I was in a different place, everything went black then a figure popped out of nowhere, it was my father.

............

"You finally realized that your brother became a better and a good person, and you're just  letting him go without a goodbye? Levi loves you dearly. He wants to protect you, you are his younger brother, he would not leave you behind to rot into nothingness ."

He then stopped for a while but then said.

"What are you going to do ? "

I snapped back into reality and turned around. I ran towards him and hugged him from the back. "Don't leave without saying goodbye!" "I came all this way just for you to say nothing!?"
I added. "why would I leave without saying goodbye?" "I am sorry luca but I have to go, I am sorry I can't give you a proper goodbye," he then turned around and hugged me as well.

" Florida to Texas passengers have to board the flight now, Florida to Texas passengers have to board the flight now"

As I heard this levI let go of me and started to walk away.

I felt even more sad. Seeing him walk away was heartbreaking. And I just stood there. Finally, I got to say goodbye. I felt accomplished but I couldn't apologize. I have not accomplished anything yet. Then I just stood there, surrounded by my thoughts. I looked back at the gateway and then started to walk back to the parking lot.

  I received some stares, but most of them had gotten into the plane so it wasn't that bad so honestly, like I cared. As I was getting closer to the car I saw that the sky was not a purple-ish pink anymore and was now blue. I entered the car and looked at my phone.

I decided to message light, I didn't know what to say to him but the only thing I knew to say was.

"I failed."