An apology is all we needed..

11 pt 2

Chapter 11

Part 2

There is no way I wrote all of this my self with not help whatsoever

Jaxx's pov

He fell asleep, on my shoulder.. I smiled and rested my head on his I thought to myself "you must be relieved that you're finally going back..". I closed my eyes for a few seconds then I opened them again to hear Alex say "hey Jaxx! There's an ice cream shop nearby, do you want to stop to get some ice cream?" She said loud enough for me to hear, "uh sure!" I replied back. "Alright. Oh and ask Levi if he wants some too!" She added. I looked at Levi who was sound asleep then tapped him on the shoulder to get his attention, as he slowly opened his eyes he also sat back up slightly. He must've realized he slept on me because he then said "I-" he said briefly taking his headphones off then spoke again. "Was I sleeping on yo- oh my, I-I am so sorry I didn't realize that I-" he stated while holding his hands up in front of him then quickly covering his face with his bag to hide his embarrassment.

"Haha! It's ok there's no need to apologize!" I smiled, lowering his bag away from his face, noticing that he was trying not to make eye contact. "Heh- you're silly, oh right! Alex told me that there's an ice cream shop nearby and told me to ask you if you wanted some." I said "oh uhm, sure!.." he said while Turning his head to look at me.

Levi's pov

What was I thinking...sleeping on him, you're so stupid I said to myself, I took out my sketchbook to try and forget about what had happened and began to draw random stuff most of them resembled him, but I couldn't get a clear picture of what he was, it was all a mess. I knew that he was a very funny person and loved to make people laugh but I couldn't see it in him, not anymore.

I began to draw over the drawings that were supposed to be about him until he noticed, "hey, why are you drawing over them? They seemed fine to me.. also I never knew you were still into drawing." He asked "I just draw what's on my mind.." I responded, closing the sketchbook up to hide the drawings "I drew over them because I didn't like how they looked.." I added. "Well, what's on your mind?" He asked.

I was quick to say "you.." I muttered quietly, quiet enough for him not to hear. "What?" He replied "it's nothing, look! We arrived-" I smiled then put my sketchbook in my bag and left him behind "If only you knew.." I whispered to myself.

I got out of the RV and Jaxx did too. Alex was waving at us as a sign to come to her as she was already by the entrance. Jaxx started walking and I followed,as we reached the entrance we were welcomed by a blue haired young male. " Hellooo, Welcome to sugar rush ice cream shop!" He said, Alex and Jaxx both waved at him while I was looking at the ground trying not to make eye contact with anyone inside.

As we walked to the counter Alex started ordering what she wanted "uhm... oh! I'll have the Ice cream sundae!" She said pointing at the picture of the sundae in the menus they had, then Jaxx ordered "I'll just have an ice cream sandwich." He said in a gentle tone. Then it was my turn to order. " uhm, uh- I'll also have an ice cream sandwich-" I stuttered, "all right! Your orders will be right with you in about 5 minutes!" The worker said. "Ok, let's go look for a table to sit at now!" Alex said. It wasn't very long until we found one. We went to it and sat for a while until Alex said "Levi, you seem a lot more quiet than why's that?" She asked,

"Oh uhm, it's not that Important.."I said avoiding the question. A few minutes past and our order finally arrived, as it was placed down in front of me I suddenly lost my appetite, a felt people staring at me. "levi are you ok?" Alex question again, I sighed. Then before I could speak Jaxx said "look, you shouldn't question him a lot sometimes there's things that we don't like to talk about an-" I interrupted Jaxx "Jaxx, I'm fine. I just don't like public places..loud public places." I said while looking at Jaxx and Alex then at the ice cream I was going to eat. "oh, why didn't you tell me? I already paid for the ice cream you could've just told us and we could've ate it in the RV.." alex worried.

"It's fine, I- I'm fine.. but still think it would be better if we went to the RV.." I said, "alright, let's go then!" Alex said as she stood up with her sundae, Jaxx stood up as well and waited for me to do so too. We went out and I started feeling bad. " I am sorry I feel like I ruined the fun-" I said, " Don't be, we would rather eat in the RV than you feeling uncomfortable." Jaxx said while smiling at me.

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We got in the RV and I went to where I sat before I was holding my cardboard bowl that still had ice cream in it . I stared at it for quite a while until Jaxx began to say " are you ok? I know you don't like people asking but I am worried.." he said while sitting next to me " yeah i am fine I just don't like public places, I feel like everyone is judging me for what I do- sometimes I feel anxious, I am starting to think I have social anxiety.." I said, "I think I lost my appetite." I added.

"Jaxx?" I asked "hm?" He replied, "I am sorry.." I said looking at him trying not to break eye contact "huh, Sorry for what?" He questioned "I am apologizing because I realized I never apologized for yelling at you and starting that stupid fight at the cafe that night." I said putting the ice cream down beside me and looking back at the floor. "Levi, I should be the one apologizing. The argument would've never started if it wasn't for me asking you questions you didn't want to answer." He said, "That's the point! You have changed a lot since then and I don't like it. I want you to keep asking me about my mental health, I want you to worry about me... I only acted like that towards you because I wasn't used to people asking about me." I said, crossing my hands and leaning down trying to cover the tears that were falling from my eyes."Levi I-" Jaxx sighed. He then got off of his seat and kneeled down to look at me. He then grabbed ahold of my shoulders and said "listen to me Levi, people care about you I am sure they do. I don't think you should ever cry about this stuff. I am sure Light cares about you, I am sure your brother cares about you, and I know I care about you. You were one of the first friends I've had that actually stayed with me for me and not because I was well known and carefree." He tried to comfort me, but suddenly my tears stopped and I looked at him. He was smiling at me. Still no spark in his eyes, I messed him up horribly and I can't fix it. I smiled, I smiled more than ever. I then sat down with him on the ground and hugged him

"Thank you."

Jaxx's pov

He hugged me and thanked me. The only thing I am good at is comforting people and I am happy about it, I'm happy when others are happy. I hugged him back then after two or three minutes we both let go of eachother and sat on our seats again.

I saw Levi reach inside his bag to get his sketchbook and his pencil out as well as his earbuds, "what else do you have in there ?" I curiously asked. "Oh uhm I have stickers- I don't know what to use them for though.." he answered as he got the packet of stickers out. "That's nice! Can I see them?" I said pointing to the stickers, "sure!" He said handing the sticker packet to me. As I grabbed the packet I began to open it to see what was inside, there were some star stickers. Small, medium, and somewhat big. I suddenly got an idea then I turned to Levi so my whole body could face him and I got some of the small star stickers out and then I tried to get Levi's attention. "Levi, I think I know what to use these stickers for!" I said, Levi then turned to look at me and said "really, what for?" "Just stay still.." I replied getting closer to him and placing a hand on his shoulder and my other hand that had the stickers attached to my fingers closer to his face "I-" he paused then quickly said "what are you doing?!" He yelled leaning back trying to get away from me. "Relax, let me just-" I said but then stopped because of the sudden movement of the RV, the movement made both me and Levi fall on the seats.

I was then on top of him and closer than ever to his face with my hands holding his. We were making eye contact and kept it like that for a while until-, Levi's face turned red and he looked away in shock. "I-I- what- oh- oh my god, J-Jaxx. Get off me.." he was a stuttering mess, then I realized what had happened and quickly let go of him, sat back up and got away from him, he did too. He was now about six feet away from me and he covered his face with his hands and brought his knees to his face as well.

I was sitting at the very end looking at the floor with my hand covering my mouth what the fuck- I said to my self, I didn't know what to feel but I was shocked I don't have any feelings for him
at all.

Levi...