and they were roommates (dreamnap)

3- falling for him

~i've got a gambling addiction and i confuse love with attention~
gambling addiction, leanna firestone

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sapnaps pov
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who would've thought that the smallest attention can make a person fall in love with someone. i mean, i've always confused love and attention but y'know,

never this badly.

i don't know where in the mixture of everything i fell in love with dream but it happened. i want to believe it's just small feelings but i know damn well it's not.

i always thought dream liked the one boy back from his home state. do they even still talk?

i couldn't tell you.

i hate to say it but i want to lose my feelings for dream. i want it to be one of those things where it's not that deep. i don't know if i'd even feel comfortable telling dream.

i hate romantic feelings.

it's not that i worry dream doesn't feel the same, i'm just scared of committing to stuff like that.

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time skip
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"punz, i need to talk to you." i said as i entered his dorm. he looked up from his phone and hummed. "what's up? you seem panicked." he said.

i sat down next to him on his bed. he turned his phone off and faced me fully. "how do i get rid of feelings for someone?" i asked him. punz furrowed his eyebrows.

he looked at me confused. "get rid of?" he asked for reassurance. i nodded. punz began to chuckle.

"sapnap, you can't just 'get rid' of your feelings for someone. that's really not how it works." punz explained to me. i scoffed.

"bullshit! i've done it in the past." i said. punz started laughing.

"that means you never had feelings for them dumbass,"

i groaned in annoyance. punz sighed. "listen, i can try and help but sap i promise you that you are not going to lose feelings immediately," punz said. i smiled and nodded at him.

"who's the person you're into?" he asked me. i felt my face heat up. "dream." i said embarrassed. punz started laughing.

"sapnap you're fucking blushing at the thought of him! you're literally in love with him! oh my god," punz said, proud that i accidentally proved his point.

i scoffed. "i don't even get why you're so scared of falling in love with dream. you two would be fine together." punz said to me. i looked at him annoyed.

"punz you don't get it! i've been friends with him for so long that i'm scared of losing everything we already have!" i said, now annoyed at punz. he wasn't being any good help.

i knew i should've gone to karl.

"sapnap you're worrying about something that's not that big of a deal. i know you worry about stuff like that but dude, give it a chance at least. maybe liking dream won't be the worst thing in the world." punz told me. i sighed.

i don't want to admit that he has a point.

"fine." i said in defeat. punz smiled and wrapped his arms around me to hug me. i hugged him back and just accepted it honestly.

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time skip
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"sapnap?" i heard. i groaned and wrapped myself more in the blanket that was covering me. "sapnap, wake up." i heard dream said.

i rubbed my eyes before opening them. i could now make out my surroundings. i saw that i was laying in dreams bed.

i looked up at dream and he started laughing. i laid back down and groaned. "shut up," i said annoyed. dream continued laughing at me. i rolled my eyes and saw he standing in front of the side of the bed.

i grabbed him by his waist and pulled him down on the bed in front of me. "stop." i sternly said. my idea must have been a great one because dream stopped laughing.

he flipped his body around to face me. all i did was stare into his eyes. we both held eye contact as our faces weren't that far apart.

i watched dreams eyes move from my eyes down to my lips. i felt like i was practically melting at his stare alone. this man did things to me and god i fucking loved them.

his eyes fixated on my lips. it felt like someone just moved my eyes because i started staring at dreams lips.

he scooted his body closer to mine. we were now close enough that our hands were touching. there was probably an inch of space between us.

i just stared at his lips and his eyes. it felt like nothing else was more important. after this moment i could definitely tell you his eye color and lip color.

his eyes were a beautiful shade of green. his eyes were gorgeous in any lighting. you could see the green more when the sun hit his eyes.

his lips were a shade of pale pink. his lips were never chapped. i always saw him putting on chapstick since chap lips bother him. you could very faintly see that he had the chapstick still on. he must have put it on when i was sleeping.

he had very faint freckles along his face as well with a jawline sharper than a knife. he honestly was mesmerizing to look at. he didn't have a single flaw. he was perfect.

dream moved one of his hands to hold my chin. i looked back into his eyes and he wasn't looking into mine.

i don't know how i'm supposed to feel about this moment, my best friend and i laying incredibly close to one another as he held my chin.

there's so many things on my mind right now but it all just sounds like white noise. all i cared about was dream.

i watched dream look in my eyes with fear in his. he looked back down at my lips and pulled my face closer to his, pulling me into a kiss.

i felt his incredibly soft lips meet mine. i closed my eyes and put one of my hands on the side of dreams face.

everything about this was slow and easy. you know, a soft slow kiss and the person you're kissing is your best friend.

yeah, this is normal.

totally.

i felt dream speed up the kiss more and more. i honestly wasn't expecting it. he pulled me closer to him so that our chests were now touching.

we pulled away slowly. our hands still on the others face. dream looked into my eyes with pure love.

i wanted to pull him back into the kiss. everything in me was telling me to.

"i..." dream got out of his mouth, breaking the silence we had been sitting in for the past, what? 15 minutes?

"i..need.." dream trailed off again. i looked at him, confused. "what's up?" i whispered to him. dream sighed.

"i want you." dream whispered but loud enough i heard.

and i definitely heard that.

i laid in shock. i simply nodded at him. i didn't really know how to respond to that. my best friend just told me he wanted me after we kissed. everything was honestly a fever dream. nothing felt real.

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