and they were roommates (dreamnap)

10- hearts after text messages

~i could get in trouble for this, im falling for a boy who thinks that falling's a sin~
star tripping, kevin atwater

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dreams pov
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i an alarm going off in my ear. i groaned and moved to turn off the annoying repetitive sound. i watched sapnap open his eyes.

i didn't want to move. holding sapnap in my arms was my favorite past time. "good morning." i said as sapnap rubbed his eyes.

all he did was put his head back in my chest. "i don't wanna get up.." he said with a muffled voice.

i chuckled at his reaction. "come on sleepyhead." i said as i moved to get up. sapnap groaned at the loss of contact.

i stood up and walked over to my dresser to get a change of clothes so i could get ready for the day.

although my outfit wouldn't be too different than what i was currently wearing.

it's just better clothes that i didn't sleep in.

i changed my clothes and turned around to see sapnap in new clothes, putting on his socks.

i smiled at him. i turned around to pull my phone out of the charger. i slid my phone into my pocket. i walked over and grabbed my backpack.

i pulled it over my shoulder and walked up to sapnap. he had his backpack on and had his phone in his hand.

"you ready?" i asked him. he nodded. i walked up and put my hand out. sapnap intertwined our fingers.

i felt like holding his hand as we walked to our classes. it's cheesy i know but that's how i felt!

we walked out of the door and prepared for the mile walk to our classes.

we never talked on the morning walks. we were both way too tired to do that. we always had a peaceful silence as we walked.

i always took the time to collect all of my thoughts.

lately my thoughts have been about sapnap. they've been caught up in if i'm into him or not. i mean, i've been into him for years but i'm scared of asking him to be my boyfriend.

i feel like he would think it's wrong for us to date.

the thought of asking him out for him to just reject me, scares me.

if me trying to prevent my fears means i have to have sex with sapnap and never address the feelings between us then i'm okay with that.

it just eats at me constantly.

i want to be able to take sapnap on real dates and hold his hand in public without the thought scaring me.

punz tells me just to ask him constantly. i know the worst sapnap could say is no but i don't want that tension between us when we live together.

i love sapnap with all of my heart but i'm scared of that.

i think he would think it's wrong that i liked him. i mean, people think we're brothers, not boyfriends.

even though i would love to be his boyfriend, i'll act as his weird brother i guess.

i don't know it's not really brotherly to kiss each other to be honest.

that's just my thoughts. lots of over thinking of my feelings and thinking about sapnap.

i couldn't imagine a life where he was actually into me, i mean, he's so pretty compared to me. he looks gorgeous and he's well aware of it. he could get anything with his looks.