Wonder ~ Paul Lahote

fifteen

Word got around fast that Edward and Bella were back from their honeymoon. We all knew this because Jacob had come back one afternoon extremely angry and some of us were in our wolf forms we could read his mind. The one thing none of us, not even Sam, was prepared for was the part where Bella had somehow gotten pregnant by a vampire. No one knew this was even possible and Sam's immediate reaction was to attack and kill whatever was growing inside of Bella.

I was nervous about this whole situation. On one side I was sceptical about what had been created and the last thing I wanted was for it to become a danger to the town, on the other hand I didn't want to hurt something that hadn't had a chance to grow and learn.

I had stressed my worries to Paul but he was fully on Sam's side that all he had on his mind was destroying this thing. I don't even know if he actually listened to what I was saying the other night.

"well you're either with us or against us" Sam said crossing his arms over his chest. I was talking to Emily and she listened and understood my worries, but Sam had walked in, after hearing what I had said.

"I can't choose sides Sam and you know that!" I said standing my ground.

"well you're going to have to" he said sternly. I walked out of the house before I said something I'd regret.

"hey what's up" Paul greeted me with concern laced in his voice. "Sam is making me choose between the Tribe and the Cullen's, and I can't do that, I have loyalties to both sides" I stressed. I was starting to get a bit upset.

"um well, I sort of agree with him. It's us or them" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. If they were truly making me choose, well I wasn't going to let my family, in Seth and Leah get hurt. If it meant losing the love of my life then so be it. I wasn't killing an innocent life without giving it a chance first. "Well, I guess I chose them I can't hurt the people that have been nothing but good to me"
"We've been nothing but good to you!" He argued
"I'm not saying you haven't been but Bella is growing a child, you can't seriously expect me to harm the child"
"Well I guess that's it then"

I looked down at my feet as I sighed, shaking my head before walking away not sparing him another glance.
I immediately went home. Home was where I didn't have to choose, I didn't have to pick between my boyfriend and the family that helped me when I needed help.

Everything had become too much too quickly and before I knew it the tears were falling. I held my hand over my mouth to stop the sobs from being too loud. I sat down on the floor against my bed, my sobs were uncontrollable, at this point I didn't care who heard me. The pain I had felt in these moments were above everything else I had every felt.

The death of Harry, the fact that I hadn't been there for Leah when I should have been, the love of my life ending things because we were on different sides of this battle.

I felt as if I'd been punched, repeatedly in the stomach, the wind being knocked right out of me, trying to catch my breath between sobs and cries became increasingly difficult, in this moment I genuinely felt hollow.

I felt a pair of arms wrap around my shoulders from the side. I knew they belonged to Seth as it was rather a firm grip he had on me.
"It's okay, you're okay, just breathe with me, take deep in and out, slowly. You're fine" Seth whispered. After following his words, I eventually felt my breathing become a lot easier to handle. I was still sobbing but I was calmer than I was before.
After some time, the sobs finished, there were still a few stray tears, but now I was just sitting there in silence. Seth's arms were still around me as he said "whenever you're ready to talk then we'll talk but there is no rush. We'll sit here all night until you're ready"

In this moment I was truly in awe over how king, caring, gentle and mature Seth had become. Without even thinking he knew what to say to calm me down and he was patient. That's all I could have asked for. A lot has happened recently and I could tell it was affecting him but because he kept a strong face. For me, this wasn't the case, bottling things up was ever worse and now that I'd broken down, and now I just felt numb.

Time passed slowly, what was actually about ten minutes, but felt like ten hours. I finally spoke, not taking my eyes off of the wall in front of me.
"Paul and I broke up, because I've chosen to protect the baby" I whispered softly, scared of my voice cracking. He didn't say anything just hugged me tighter.
Seth helped me up onto the bed, I needed to lay dawn, maybe for the rest of eternity. I was exhausted and had no energy, sleep was basically calling my name. As soon as my head hit the pillow I felt peace and my consciousness everything faded into unconsciousness, bringing me the much needed sleep I soo heavily desired.