Wonder ~ Paul Lahote

seventeen

The next few hours were a blur. No one said anything. The silence almost deafening. Rose had taken on the role of temporary mother whilst Bella was 'dead'. She wouldn't let anyone else near Renesmee, she was protecting the child with her life, but to be honest I really wasn't too bothered about being near her. It wasn't that I didn't love Ness because I did, she was super adorable and gentle and of course I'd protect her no matter what, but she had rose and I just wasn't great with holding babies and I was scared I'd break her. Did I mention she's cute though. I knew she was safe with Rose so I didn't have too much too worry about.

I could sense a presence approach the house, the person was most definitely hesitant as their scent drew slowly closer. I peered out of the window, to see Paul cautiously making his way through the forrest. In his human form. Usually when he goes to the woods he's in his wolf form so this must have been important. I sighed and got up without saying anything to anyone and walked out the house. Making my way towards the brunette.

"What are you doing here?" I said bluntly, blatantly glaring his way and folding my arms standing in front of him. I couldn't be bothered with any confrontation or arguing, so I got straight to the point. I was tired as arting would do nothing but hurt us both more.

"I've come to apologise to you. Would you walk with me?" He said gently.
"Why should I Paul. You made it very clear you wanted nothing to do with me" I reminded him. What can I say? I'm stubborn.

"I was wrong okay! I made a mistake. I was sure this, this thing was a threat and I didn't want you to put yourself in harms way. But all I did was push you further into harms way"
"Baby! She's just a baby" I growled.
"Fine baby. Sorry" he sighed.

"Also, why should I trust anything you say to me! You really hurt me! You were the one who fucked up!" I said pointing at him.
"I know and I deeply regret it. When I imprinted on you, I promised to love and protect you endlessly and I failed you! Please let me show you how sorry I am!" He said sighing. He seemed genuine. I was scared that he'd let something else get in the way of our relationship. I was scared he'd be blinded by rage and wouldn't be rational.

"Why did you do it Paul? Why did you end things with me? That's not what I wanted. I was just trying to do what was right" I said my lip quivering slightly. I straightened my back and tilted my head back slightly, frowning. I wasn't going to let myself cry I'd done plenty of that recently.
"I was an idiot. I never should have ended things. You don't know how much I've hated myself ever since" He said taking my hands in his. I straightened my head to look at him, the tears in my eyes glistening in the sunlight.
"Please give me a chance to make this right" he practically begged.

"How do I know this won't happen again?" I said quietly.
"Because what we have is far more important than any stupid conflict. There aren't enough words in the world to describe how utterly in love I am with you and I can't lose you again!" He said sincerely, gesturing between the two of us. Of course I still loved him. I knew I would forgive him quickly but it was physically hurting me to be away from him. Imprint bond and all.

I looked down at our entwined hands and then looked back at him. "Okay" I whispered. Loud enough for him to hear. His face resembled a kid at Christmas. All bright and smiley.
"But if you pull this stunt again I will smack you" I warned. My height wasn't very threatening, so it wasn't much of a threat. He looked at me and laughed as I tried to looked intimidating.
I've definitely missed the sound of his laugh. Everything has been so tense lately and I was starting to get wrinkles.

He kissed me lovingly and I returned his affection just as much. "I love you too by the way" in mumbled against his lips, to which he connected again after my comment.

Somethings in life are certain. Like death for example. But I believe sometimes uncertainty is just as good. If not better.
These past few weeks without Paul had proven to me that I never want to be away from him ever again.
I'm no doubt he makes idiotic decisions but so do I, and I guess that's what makes us, us.

We're not always going to see eye to eye but knowing we care so deeply for one another makes it all the more worth while to get through to the other side of the disagreements.
We're both extremely stubborn, but at any given time, if I needed Paul he wouldn't hesitate to be at my side. He'd do anything in his power to make me happy and he'd do it without complaint, no task to big. You know the saying happy wife, happy life, definitely summed it up.

The night consisted of multiple movies, a lot of snack eating and cuddling and generally just enjoying one another's company.