Wonder ~ Paul Lahote

five

Today, I was hanging out with Emily.
I came over to apologise for being ridiculous the other day and she shushed me telling me not worry and that we all have bad days and then invited me in, we've been hanging out ever since. She was really great company and right now that's what I really needed.
The boys had all gone cliff diving and I wanted absolutely zero part in it.

We talked about anything and everything, she was telling me about imprinting and that she was Sam's imprint. They naturally fell in love but the imprint bond cemented their love. She told me that when wolves imprint it's like even fibre of their being wouldn't stop at anything to protect their soulmate.
I made me wonder if I'd find the person I was destined to be with. But with my luck I doubt that would happen anytime soon.

The sky suddenly turned a horrible dark grey colour almost sending a warning. I could sense something bad had happened. My gut was telling me to go home and then make sure everyone was okay.

"Em, I think I need to go home now. Something is telling me that's where I need to be right now" she nodded in understanding, no needing to say anything. I hugged her tightly, leaving the house and sped to my car. I felt rude just leaving Emily alone like that but she understood.

Upon arriving home my gut feeling only worsened when I saw my aunt Sue standing outside waiting for me.
"Sue? Sue, what going on? Is everyone okay?" I asked panicked when I looked at her facial expression, pure sadness. She had tears in her eyes and he face also looked as if she had just finished crying for the one hundredth time tonight.
"It's Harry, he had a heart attack, he didn't make it" my world crumbled. "No, no, no. This can't be true. Please tell me it's not true" I said shaking my head, trying to comprehend what she was saying.

I leapt into her arms, pulling her so close to me as I let out a sob. This wasn't happening, Harry couldn't be dead, surely not?

My head instantly started spinning, my emotions were high. That's when I saw them, Seth and Leah, without a second thought I pulled them close into me. It was evident in Seth's face that he had been crying, Leah was a tough cookie but you could see that this had affected her badly.
"I'm so sorry" I whispered to the sibling duo.

This feeling for foreign to me. When I lost both my grandparents, I felt my world crumble, I was lost for a while. When I lost my parents I didn't know how to feel. They weren't dead, but they were barely there either.
Losing Harry had to be possibly one of the worst experiences of my life. It was unfathomable. I really felt for Leah and Seth, couldn't even begin to understand how they might be feeling.

Paul, Jared, Embry, Jacob and Bella all arrived at the scene, Bella and Jacob dripping wet for whatever reason. With this many people here I knew I wouldn't be able to cope. I couldn't bare the pitiful stares, I couldn't imagine how Leah and Seth were feeling.
So i did the only thing I was good at, and that was hiding. I slipped away before anyone could notice and ran. I was distraught.

I knew I needed to be there for Leah and Seth but right now I knew I'd be shit company so I left that to Sue to be there for them. Of course I was coming back I just needed to breath. The woods seemed like a great place to do so.
I was walking for what seemed like hours when in fact it was about 30 minutes, I had passed the treaty line knowing I was still human so I could pass, not knowing what was coming next.

And then it happened...

I didn't know what was happening to me, all of a sudden I felt like I was over heating, I ripped my jumper off over my head as quickly as possible tossing it to one side. Still nothing eased up, I felt like I was on fire, the feeling was making me incredibly anxious. My temper had risen. Harry's death was the final straw.
This feeling was abnormal.

I couldn't breath properly. My anxiety was at an all time high, bashing myself against the tree in an attempt to make this feeling stop.
The discomfort I was feeling was disheartening, everything felt like it was spinning and all of a sudden I was now in the form of a wolf. The human inside me panicked, I was flailing around doing everything in my power to try to change back into my human form but nothing was working.

I felt anguished. Mentally I couldn't fathom what was happening. My first instinct was to howl, so I did that.
I tried everything I could to get myself to change back. Nothing worked. Then I thought about myself in my human form. My long brunette hair, defined jaw line, petit frame. And then I was back.
Thankfully it worked however I was almost naked, didn't like that feeling. I twisted my body in all sorts of directions trying to find my clothes having quickly realised they ripped during transformation. Fuck.

I stumbled and found myself falling, I tumbled down a hill hitting my head a few times before landing with a thud. In that moment in hopes and praying someone would find me. I was hoping someone had heard my howl and was looking for me right this seconds.
I vaguely heard my name being called, but that was the last thing I heard but before I felt myself slipping into an unknown darkness, eventually falling unconscious.