Happy New Year! For a while I've noticed that I've been sad, nothing has caused it, but I feel like everything is going to make me cry, I miss the stars from my hometown...
Again it's been a while, I've started listening to a lot of Ghost, they're really good! I'm passing all of my classes—surprisingly—my family hasn't noticed though which sucks :/ Me and Mr.Cage are still going strong. But can I say something that I've not even told my best friend?
Yes I do deeply care for Cage, and he says he loves me, but I don't think I love him. I'm happy I'm not alone, but I don't enjoy kissing him, I enjoy the stability his family has and how he treats me. But he's met my family and they adore him. And I feel like it's too late, like I'm in too deep. And I know if we break up I'm going to be devastated. So maybe I do love him? But I don't feel sparks like how they do in the books and how my friends and family describe love.
In other news, Spider and Flower are engaged! Gecko broke up because Gecko had a crush on a 14/15 year old person and wanted to go skinny dipping with them even though they are an adult 🤢🤮. And Spider also has a new Partner, they have a very pretty name, and they are very pretty, I don't know what I'll call them in here, I don't even know if I should because I doubt I'll speak much of them.
My mom and her liver are looking for houses together which is scary, I just still don't feel ready, but I don't feel I have a say in what happens, she really loves him, and he loves her. He's an amazing guy, he got me a record player for Christmas, but with everything that's happened before, I still feel worried. Maybe that's what's wrong, I have trust issues.
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