My Invisible Friends (Imaginary But Real)

Too Much Going On

May 17

This morning when I woke up and saw Lynn, her wrist had another slit in it. I hate how she feels this way, and I want to help her, but I don't know how to get her to stop. She slept in really late because she is depressed, and now she wears those gloves on her arms all the time. Mrs. Meredith gave them to her. Ms. Dolly and Joseph have to stay this week, and Lynn is staying so neither one of us will have to suffer alone. I don't think Joseph will be doing anything to anyone for a while with his broken leg. But I feel bad for Mrs. Tammy (Payton's adoptive mom) who will be here this weekend and have to deal with Joseph and Dolly. Joseph's pervertedness and Dolly's b*tchiness are going to drive her crazy. She'll have to deal with that all weekend, and it's a long weekend, too. What my main concern is is that my friend Markissa's birthday is on Sunday of next week and she shouldn't have to deal with Ms. Dolly and Joseph.

Brienna and I wanted to know whether Lynn would want us to come back on Saturday instead of Lisa and Kirsten (our cousins) staying two nights, or if she would be ok with us staying away one more night next weekend. Lynn wanted me to be here on Saturday. So that's what I decided I would do, and Brienna could just stay away that night if she wanted.

We're supposed to go to Nashville Shores with Markissa on her birthday, and our friends that she invited (Cindy, Ellen (Cindy's sister), Aliesha, Alexis (Aliesha's sister) Anita, Beth (Anita's sister)), and Mario are coming with us. Mario is Brienna's boyfriend of almost 3 years, and it will be exactly 3 years next Monday, so they're going on an anniversary date together then. We don't have school on Monday due to Memorial Day, so they don't have to worry about skipping school like Madeline and Daniel did.

Later, when Brienna told Lynn she could come with us when we spend the night with a friend while Lisa and Kirsten are here on Friday, she told Lynn she could pick the friend that we will ask to stay with. So Lynn picked Marybeth.

Then I went to Kroger with my mom, Timmy, Sheyenne, Aunt Becca, Ms. Scarletissa, Lynn, Rose, and Madeline. It's good that Lynn and Sheyenne could be away from Joseph. I bought a book about these girls that get raped repeatedly so I can see what Lynn and Sheyenne probably went through. I know they probably won't want to talk about it to anyone but each other.

We went to O'Charley's for dinner and then home, and when I walked past Joseph who was sitting on the couch, he poked my butt! I beat him in the head with a rod and Ms. Dolly came after me and tried to hurt me because she hadn't seen him poke me. He didn't let her see. Then I told Madeline and told her to just watch, and I nervously walked by him again and he did it again!!! UGH! Worse, he did it where Ms. Dolly wouldn't see it, and she got mad at Madeline for slapping Joseph across the face. Then she and Joseph went to do the nasty, and when they were done after about an hour, Ms. Dolly kept trying to talk to me but I just ignored her, and would barely even look at her. Then I rolled my eyes at her and Joseph yelled at me, and I sub-flipped him off.

Then Dolly saw the DM I had sent her, calling her a monstrous b*tch and she sent me a mean one back. I don't know what to do about her anymore. How is it that a week ago, she was calling me her little sister and treating me like a princess, and now she is being so horrible?!

Xoxo~ M