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Do what your soul makes you happy

One of the lessons I learned in the previous year and probably the best one is to always do what your soul makes you happy. In other words, follow your heart more than your brain. Last Christmas (I gave you my heart, hehe) I went to Bilbao. I was deeply depressed, and on the 21st of December, when I was alone at home (as a mischievous little kid like in Home Alone), I decided to take my car and go on a trip. Such an amazing decision I took. Such a great inversion on myself. Yeah, I lost myself on the road with the car, but I always ended up in the right direction until reaching my final destination. And yeah, I lost a lost of money and a purse (it got stolen, but my ID card and driving license got back, thanks to a guardian angel who took them back to the police station). But the pleasure of eating a waffle in a park with fresh air while watching little kids playing with their families. Or drinking coke and eating "pintxos" close to the sea. Or just contemplating the city from the distance and breathing fresh air. Or eating a cheese burger in the hotel room while watching TV. Nobody is gonna take these memories off from me. Sometimes I doubted about leaving that place, yet I felt something within me telling me not to leave that place yet, until I found myself without more options, but to leave the city with my sister, since I was really tired and saw her on my dreams.

We all have vibes that ask us to do things because they lead us to our final destination. We need to follow those instincts and trust God. The reason why Bilbao was because I watched it on TV, after going to the church, because I was anguished about something, and I felt like my breathe was taken away and felt a bit hit on my heart.

Make decisions based on your vibes, whether they are a mistake or not. Some of them all lead you to your destiny (for instance, eating chocolate or a burger because you feel inclined to do so does not lead you to your fate, but it makes you happy, so it's a tiny little step, LOL). The thing is to get out of your comfort zone and see what magical and amazing things happen. And when you do, your soul will be more in peace. So always get out of your comfort zone and always try new things. For instance, one day, I talked to my previous German teacher who I used to call "witch" behind her back (since she did something really dark and mean, before I went to the USA for a summer internship; thanks God  the outcome was not bad) and tried to have a closure with her. At first, I was really in peace and felt humble, but then I started to replay that conversation and felt she had a huuuuuge ego. Anyway, the situation with that woman does not longer bother me anymore, which is a huuuuuge step for me in this journey.

Going back to the purpose of this chapter: things won't always be easy, but you need to be autonomous and take decisions on your own based on your own criteria. Sometimes without the help of others, but that's the best way to learn and sense an amazing feel within your body (God helping you). So if you wanna be a rockstar instead of a lawyer, try it. I used to be hesitant with things I love, like the master I was doing; it took me one year to take this course and I ended up learning a looooot of useful things and realizing that my family was too overprotective (I also perceived other signs) and a bit toxic; thus, the reason for my trip. 

In conclusion, do what your soul asks you and makes you happy. It's the only way to learn; besides, Jesus is gonna protect you wholly. Look at my case when my purse was stolen. I thought I got my ID card and driving license stolen and that were never gonna come back, but one day, out of the blue, I got a call from the police station saying they got them and I couldn't be happier, wanting to cry. Because without my ID card and driving license, I'd have gotten into trouble. But I'll talk more about Jesus' protection later on. 

UPDATE: Sometimes, u just need to follow a routine, or try to follow, instead of always following your instincts, as you can end up in bankruptcy. I dropped university's master degree because I WAS FUCKING UNCOMFORTABLE. And I chose to drop it because people made me feel uncomfortable. EVERYTHING YOU LOSE IS A STEP YOU TAKE. Sometimes, you lose relatives in the path and then you come back stronger to them, but at first you gotta lose them so that the relationship can be better. A better attachment.