CONNECTIONS

Twin Flames Connection (II)

Good things:

Like, for example, I felt breathless when I touched his hand and his back, TWICE. I always thought it was just a simple love thing, but it was beyond that and, when seven years later, I read someone else's experience, I felt like... "OMG. It's exactly what happened to me". The more I tried to avoid it during these years, the feeling always came back. Everything happens for a reason and serves for a purpose. I'm just waiting for it.

Another beautiful thing that comes from this is that you can feel what the other person's feeling. Like if he feels sad, you notice it on your heart. And when he's happy, you notice it too. EVERY SINGLE FEELING. So you must take care of yourself. It's like taking care of your and their emotions. Obviously, we cannot be happy every single time. Sometimes it's nice to hear advice but other times it's annoying. The best way is music and food, apart from mindfulness.

And yes, you may think it's crazy, but it's true, you can feel when the other person feels horny or has intimate thoughts with you. I read about smiling out of the blue. You also feel like the other person is making love to you. It's beautiful.

Oh, but the most amazing thing is when you can hear, through your left ear, the other person's heartbeat. It shocked me, but it's true. It's really beautiful.

The best of all is that you start taking care of yourself in the separation phase and you feel less alone because it's like you're tied to him through an invisible string between your hearts. You heal one another. And you start to understand each other's point of view.

Oh, and the sense of autonomy. It gives you a boost!

An amazing phenomenon that happens with this connection is that, out of the blue, you start singing a song you haven't heard in a while or for a looong time. It's actually crazy, it seems insane, but it's true. And it comes from the heart rather than your mind. Unbelievable. One day, in bed, I started to sing It's my life by Bon Jovi (not a bad song, cool, but like I don't usually listen to their songs) and I looked at the lyrics and saw the name of my TF there and I felt like... WTF? And I felt my heart beating so fast. And while I'm writing, I've felt singing certain lyrics and I assume that's how he's feeling right now due to circumstances. Seriously... UN-BE-LIE-VA-BLE.

Oh (yes, I say many times "oh") and when you least expect it, you have random thoughts (in my case they were negative) that do not belong to you. Just like with emotions. In my case, I was in the kitchen and then I started to have thoughts, kinda... "she did that, but she's changing". It was out the blue. Well, other time I thought I had a positive thought in class, so yeah, not all of them are negative. But I just gotta be careful, because maybe my mind makes them up or I don't know. It's something very delicate.

All in all, when you are really awake and aware of that spiritual connection, you realize you're kinda dating but in a spiritual way. You feel orgasms, you feel like you're making love to each other, you feel their love through your heart, you feel like they're sending songs to you out of the blue and now I've seen certain images out of the blue. I never understood that regarding images, but now I see them. Strange but curious. People may think I'm crazy but there's sth beyond us. The Universe, God or ... i don't know... call it what you want :)

It's true, you get over really negative feelings or at least you handle them much better than before.

Understanding. And that you become a better person. You live situations in order to understand their point of view, their worries, their anxiety, their feelings. And perhaps they live the same situations as you did and can understand your point of view, your worries, your anxiety, your feelings. It's all a process after all. We repeat situations from a different point of view, so you understand your TF and other people's emotions.

But not everything's great

Bad things:

If the other person already had someone else, it's the most painful experience at all. It's not just like your crush is dating someone else. No. It's like the other half of your soul can't be with you. And I admit I should've handled the thing better with a therapist since 2016. But I'll do it now. I thought the pain was over, but it isn't. I even saw books that talked about that! If only had I known...

Besides, it's really exhausting. That cycle of running and chasing. One trying to make the other one loved and the other running from love because of fear. I understand both instances. But I feel really tired sometimes and, from what I have seen in others, it's also very tiring. They say it's worth it. Yet, this does not make it less tiring and sad. But in the separation phase you start to interiorize all the lessons and truly know it's ok not to be ok every day. Thus, now I understand the importance of resting that everyone recommends (now I reopen the chapters of invisible string and signs: it's curious how in 2019 I bought a magazine of Mindfulness, because I like this kind of things, and in one of the pages there was the Guggenheim Museum of New York and in 2022 I saw both things, but one in Bilbao and the other was NYC).

It's really really really complicated how to handle karmic relationships or partners. In this spiritual journey you'll have to face them several times, but you gotta stay strong and do what your soul asks you to do in that moment, whether they like it or not.

Oh and when you try to meet them, I men your TF, but the Universe complicates it more in the first stage of this journey. It's really heartbreaking, however, people have got over it and got recovered.