2014
Dying sounds lovely
Knowing that I won't breath again
That I won't hear how fucked up again sounds great
Not hearing anything bad about myself is even better
Not looking at myself and hating everything I see is amazing
Death is my only thought now
I've been wanting to die for so long because the pain is unbearable
I can't stand being in a place where I'm so hated and disliked
All I ever ask for is to feel pretty for one day of my life, just to feel beautiful with what I'm wearing or just feeling beautiful because I am
I don't think it will happen because I know I'm not and no matter what people say, that I am, I just can't see it
I feel that I'm gross and disgusting and that's why I can't find someone to love me
Death is something no one wants except the people who have been fighting a battle in their mind for too long, someone that is like me
Sometimes I wished I was okay without having an urge to die or an urge to hurt myself
~S.H.A.
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ŞiirThese poems come from my mind and my heart and tell the truth about what I actually feel.