Sinful (GxG)

XLVI: 11AM (Serena's POV)

I laid in Rosaline's guest bedroom staring at the ceiling thinking about what happened earlier today. I can't believe I said some of those things. I didn't mean to be that harsh and make Amelia cry, but it just came out. I should go say sorry. I made her cry. She cried outside for hours. I know Rosaline told her to sleep on the couch. Probably the same reason I had to stay. Cause of 'emotional stress' and that I can't drive with tears in my eyes.

I stood up out of bed and walked over to the living room. How exactly would I start this? Apologizing for what? What I said? Making her cry? Or telling the truth? Well, some of the truth. I should tell her. At least give her some salvation instead of the endless crying she's done. I walked over to the couch and peeked over. Amelia is asleep. I walked around and stared down at her face. She looks peaceful. I placed my hand on her cheek and ran my thumb across her lips. Soft. Just like I remember. I know she is asleep, but this is a good time to have a talk with her. So I at least feel better. I sat on the floor next to the couch and held Amelia's hand. Sighing before speaking.

"So ummm hey Amelia... I know you're asleep and can't respond to me, but I felt like this is a good time for me to talk about us. So, ummm about earlier. I'm sorry. For you know. Being harsh and making you cry. I know if you were awake you would probably tell me you weren't crying and act all tough, but I know you were. I didn't mean to be that hard on the subject about us. I surely didn't mean to make you cry. Watching you cry nearly made me cry. I don't like seeing you hurt... I know I said hurtful things but I didn't really mean it. It was just the sudden return of my long gone girlfriend who just shows up in the room when you're about to have kinky sex with her friends sister. I'm sorry. I'm also sorry for banging Rosaline after I saw you. I was kind of trying to make you jealous..."

I sighed as I looked down at our hands holding each other.

"To be honest... I've missed you Amelia. These past five years. I always have. I just learned to stop crying over your leave. I don't know how I feel about us coming back together... It's just... I just don't know how it would really work you know? I mean after five years with out you. You can't really just come back and we start dating again. I mean, we're ex-girlfriends right? Even though there was not official ending. Just a goodbye. I don't know where I'm going with this... I really don't. I'm talking to my sleeping ex-girlfriend at..."

I looked up at the clock to tell time.

"11PM... God I'm crazy. I think I'll end this one way conversation and just say one thing. I miss you too Amelia, but I don't know what to do. Maybe you'll tell me when you wake."

"You should kiss me..."

I looked at Amelia's face who had a smile on and was staring at me with slightly tired eyes.

"Y-You're awake?"

"And you're talking to your sleeping girlfriend?"

"Uhhhh... D-Did you hear all of that?"

"Mmhmm. Every. Single. Word."

"T-This is... Ummm... Weird."

"Do you really miss me Serena?"

"Well yeah. Of course. How couldn't I?"

"What are we going to do Serena? Like. What is our plan for us?"

"Why don't we settle this is in the morning Amelia. Goodnight."

I stood up and began to walk past the couch until Amelia grabbed my hand.

"One more thing Serena."

"What is it?"

Amelia tugged my arm and pulled me down to her and kissed me. I was right. These lips are just as soft as I remembered. They taste this time though. What is that? Cherry? Strawberry? Watermelon? Whatever. Nobody cares anyway. Amelia stopped kissing me but held my face in her hands.

"Goodnight Serena."