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Chapter 10

What the actual Shit is a little girl doing in out lounge room luke Better have a good reason for this cause I'm so weirded out right now bloody luke the idiot. What are we going to do with a kid I guess it will make the boys more responsible at least
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I go downstairs because someone is calling me I think it's luke
"ash tenna everyone come here"
"What do you want loser" micheal calls from the other room
"Just shut up and get you ass in here" Luke yells back
Everyone gets in the kitchen and he starts speaking
"So we are going clubbing no ifs or buts I have decided I rest my case goodnight"
Great clubbing sweaty clubs with drunk people in them yay
"Aren't you forgetting me" someone says
"Well we can't take you sweetheart so how would you feel if we called a babysitter"
That's right we are looking after a kid now
"Yeah sure whatever"
The kid leaves the room k then whatever
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We get to the club around seven and we go in as soon as I get in the door my heart starts racing I don't like this at all
"Guys don't worry I won't drink you can all have a good time" I say
"Are you ok you" tenna asks
"Yeah I'm fine go have a good time"
"Whatever you say" they walk off and I go sit down in a corner immediately I feel sick it's to loud in hear and the smell makes me want to vomit I should probably tell you why ever since I was little I got panic attacks not as much as now but I did and it was the scariest thing ever in pretty sure it was the dark that caused it and even now the dark is my worst fear being in small places also I get them worse now but all in all I think you have got the point that I don't like them but this atmosphere is making it worse just when I'm thinking it couldn't get any worse about four hours later I go out for some air and the smell of smoke hits me like a bus and it's also dark outside so my heart beat quickens I try to get away from the smoke and the light from the club starts fading I'm shaking violently when suddenly a hand touches my shoulder I drop to the ground and scream with my hands over my ears and my eyes closed
"Hey it's only me what's wrong" I work out that it was Ashton's hand touching my shoulder but my eyes stay shut and I keep my hands frozen over my ears I stopped screaming but I'm shaking and there are tears running down my face
"Shh it's ok it's only me what wrong"
I slowly open my eyes
"Ash don't scare me like that in the dark" I whimper
" what just happened"
"Can I explain when I stop shaking" I whisper
"Ok and by the way I only had two drinks so I'm not smashed like the others"
I nod ash carries me back to the car and he sits there cuddling me
"Ash what I had back there was called a panic attacks I have had them since I was seven when I have a panic attack don't say anything or ask if I want something you go and do it ok"
"Ok"
"Anyway you think we should go get these idiots"
"Yeah ok" ash says