Behind The World's Mask

Chapter 2

When I reached the house, I immediately took a shower and changed into my pajamas. After I put on my clothes, I tied up my hair into a ponytail and proceed to study. I was hungry earlier but after the argument with Ezra, I lost my fucking appetite.

I have so many cases to read, nakakabaliw. But, I wouldn't say less, as long I have that presidential lister I won't lose any motivation to study. Not even once or twice. Even if I do, I won't let that list get off of my name. Ever since I entered law school, I'm always the top one, kaya maraming galit kasi naiinggit.

Oh if you knew how much pressure I deal with myself just to get in that spot.

I heard a knock on the door and when I looked who was it. It was my mom looking so stressed out.

"I'm sorry if I disturbed you. Can I talk to you real quick?" My mom asked

I just nodded my head and offered her to sit on my bed. She inhaled a large full of air before talking, "Your father is not in a very good state," she said blankly, "His chest pains are getting worst, he always experiences shortness of breath. I just don't know what to do."

"Is he still smoking? Exercising? Eating healthy foods?" I asked

"He wouldn't listen. I'm getting worried." She cried in front of me

I get weak when I see one of my parents cry, "Where is he?" I asked her right away.

"In the kitchen, but you don't need to go down you're still studying." My mom stopped me.

"It won't take long." So I went out of my room and go to my father. He shouldn't be like this! If he wants to prevent a heart attack, he should take care of himself! Hahayaan ko sarili ko magkasakit, kesa sina mom and dad. Ako nalang magdusa, wag nalang sila. Kasi kaya ko tiisin, sila hindi, eh.

When I reached the kitchen, I saw dad... Drinking... For fuck sake, no!

"Dad, you should stop that." I snatched the drink out of his hand, "Dad if you want to be healthy you should stop your unhealthy lifestyle, you're making it difficult for mom." I was so calm in this situation.

"Wala akong pakelam! Akin na 'yan, wala kang kwentang anak." He said

Ouch.

It's okay, dad, you're just drunk. I understand you wouldn't say that in front of my face if you're not drunk, right? I'll continue to understand your situation. As long you're happy with it, it's okay with me.

"I'm sorry." I walked out

I just saw mom staring at me, I smiled at her assuring her that I'm okay. I locked myself in the room and continue reading. It was already four am I had no sleep at all, I felt so tired but I will just buy a cup of coffee to boost up my energy.

I will prepare myself for school, sa library nalang ako tatambay at don muna matulog saglit. So I fixed my stuff and took a shower. After taking a shower, I wore a black skirt, a white polo inside, and a black coat. I didn't style my hair today, I just want to look simple and elegant. If only I can wear comfortable shoes I would wear them, but they required to wear black high heels.

Para sa bayan, para sa kapwa, hindi susuko.

I didn't bother eating at home, I'll just buy something at Starbucks or kung ano man tinda sa paligid. Basta bibili ako kape. Buti nalang may Starbucks akong nakita malapit sa sakayan ng jeep kaya bumili muna ako. After buying coffee, nag-abang nako jeep para makasakay.

The price of the jeep is so unbelievable, from 8 pesos to 12 pesos real quick. The inflation rate is not a joke at all, we need a solution for this. 

Naka dating din ako a school around 6 am kaya may time pa para mag nap. Pero hindi ako nasisiyahan sa nakita ko, si Ezra ang bungad. Nakakasira ng araw, sarap itapon young kape sa pagmumukha niya. I didn't bother talking to him and started minding my own business. Inaantok ako kaya I decided to sleep for 15 minutes.