Together Alone/ 𝐟𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐨𝐫𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞

•𝕋𝕙𝕚𝕣𝕥𝕪 𝕥𝕙𝕣𝕖𝕖•

I'm already at home and tomorrow at Friday is my birthday.
I don't celebrate birthday much so I'll maybe bake one cake and eat it with my brother and parents .
My only friend who knows when is my birthday is Yeonjun and I hope he doesn't buy me anything because it's hard for me to accept gifts.
,,Hey!" ,,where are we going tomorrow?" Kai ran to my room.
,,Hmm sitting at our sofa in our living room?" I replied.
,,What are you saying?" ,,You're literally turning 18! You're not gonna sit at home!" ,,You need to get wasted!" He was literally yelling at me.
,,You know me brother, I'm good with the living room." I winked at him.
,,You're so lame Kristinne." He throws his hands and left.
I actually really like to celebrate my birthday because I feel like it's very important day for me but if I'm gonna make big plans or imaginations I know it wouldn't end well. Yeah I'm a big overthinker.
After when I had time for myself I picked a book my mom gave me, I jumped on my bed and started reading. Maybe the last time I read as a teenager haha.

After few hours I was scrolling my phone when I saw a Boram's post for a party at Saturday.
Of course she wants to ruin my birthday for me, maybe I'm just overthinking but honestly I know she doesn't want peaceful life for me.
But at least calm birthday for me.
Few minutes later on instagram appeared new enhypen posts from some Prada show. My eyes were catching Nishimura Riki's face only, he looked prettier than a fairytale, how can is even possible I'm in his life? And how is he doing his exhausting work next to school and his private life? Is he okay?
If i can be honest sometimes I read the bad comments addressed to him just to feel tha pain with him even when I know for him it must be a hell. I can see he is trying to be perfect for his fans and closed ones, but nobody can be perfect for everyone.
I want him to know he's enough and worthy.
Most of the time I'm not so friendly to him because I'm worried.
Now I just know I really love him, I think I always did.

It's already Friday and my birthday day! I got ready and now I'm sitting in Kai's car to drive me to school.
Kai gave me new headphones as a gift so I was listening music the whole way.
,,Oh woww my favorite friend is celebrating 18th birthday today !" Yeonjun jumped on me and hugged me.
,,This is first part of your present!" He handed me a box.
,,Yeonjun I told you I don't want anything." I gave him a serious look.
,,Well you need to get used to it with me." He winked at me.
As I opened the box I almost got a heart attack.
It was a frickin Vivienne Westwood bag!
,,Are you crazy?" ,,This thing is very expensive!" ,,I don't want from you to spend money on me." I was shocked.
,,I know you like it." He smiled.
I gave him an angry look and then I hugged him.
,,Thank you so much goof."
,,Just get ready, this birthday would be wild!" He whispered.

The headphones:

The bag:

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