Together Alone/ 𝐟𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐨𝐫𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞

•𝔽𝕠𝕣𝕥𝕪 𝕥𝕨𝕠•

I was already in front of his house when I saw something I didn't even think about.
I saw trough his window his tall figure and next to him figure of some girl.
They're in hug in that moment and to be honest it wasn't very nice view.
I turned around right away and went back home.
It was the worst and longest way to home.
My eyes were filled with thousands of tears and my mind was just replying the scene in the window over and over again.
For a while I needed to stop and sat to the nearest bench.
I rubbed my face with my shirt where I got a small stain with tears.
Maybe I was overthinking and overreacting this whole situation again but just the look at him and the girl hurt me.
Why it hurts so much? Why I fell in love with him? I knew from the beginning that this would never work out but the little flame of hope inside me told me try it and now.. here I am.
The worst thing is that now I can't even talk to him because what would I say to him?
Hi sorry I was ignoring even though it was not your fault and I also wanted to tell you how I feel about you but you most likely like someone else and our friendship is ruined! Yay!
It will work like this?

Week passed and I was feeling a little better.
Me and Yoonah started hanging out more and tomorrow I'm going to lunch with Jong-dae, that boy I met in front of restaurant.
It's not a date or something but I thought it would be better to socialize myself more.

,,Hey!" ,,Open the door!!" Someone started knocking at my door.
I came to the door to unlock it and than I saw Yeonjun with a big teddy bear in his hands.
,,Hi Yeonjun!!" ,,You're finally back!" I hugged him.
,,I know it was so frustrating without me." He said sarcastically.
,,Come in." I let him in my room because we were standing in front of the door.
,,Look!" ,,I bought you this! It reminded me of you." He threw the big teddy bear on me.
,,Oh my god!" ,,He's cute tho!" ,,Thanks." I took the teddy bear to my hands and he was almost as tall as me.
,,So." ,,Tell me." ,,What's going on?" He sat on my bed.
,,Hm?" ,,Why?" I looked at him.
,,Kristinne do you really think Im that dumb." ,,Even Yoonah said to me that something is going on." He was suddenly so serious it was scary.
Yeonjun is my best friend so after some minutes I told him everything that happened when he was gone.
And I even admitted that I love Niki to him.
I knew that I can tell him everything but I was just so closed to myself and I still am most of the time.
,,I know that now you can't just go to talk to him because it's hard for you." ,,I think now you need to think of yourself as a priority." ,,Niki was right when he told you that it would be great if you started dancing actively again." ,,Do it!" He pushed my arm softly.
,,And if you don't I will do it for you!" ,,I'm going to bring you to a casting with my own hands." He added confidently.
,,I was actually thinking about it but-." I wanted to say something but Yeonjun cut me of.
,,But what?" ,,No excuses now!" ,,You'll do it because I know you want to and you love dance!"
,,From today on you will practice every day until the first audition you'll find." He sounded more like my mom than my mom herself.
,,Okay!" ,,I'll try it." I replied right away now 100% convinced that it's a good idea.

—————-to be soft is to be powerful——————