|Lexi|
Then she told me why she ignoring me.
" Hello?! you keep bringing up my ex when you're with me and I feel uncomfortable. I know you don't like him but saying that bringing him up is to give you something to talk about. When there's a lot for other things going on that you could talk about. But no it just had to be my ex. Tell me Lexi, you don't like getting a taste of you're own medicine. You pranked me twice. you thought it was funny. I didn't block you or remove you as a friend on Snapchat or any social media platform. But you? you blocked me on snapchat and like you're hella pissed for what?" y/n says.
"it wasn't funny y/n" I replied.
" Lexi of course it was funny, don't you get it? This is how I felt when you pranked me twice and told me it was funny."
" Y/n stop being childish."
" Yeah I get I can be childish sometimes Lexi. But it hurts doesn't it? getting a taste of you're own medicine that you started." y/n said as she walked off into the distance.
What the actual fuck.
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|Y/n|
Its already 2023. I've never felt more fucked up in my whole life. What if I could make it all go away?
no,no y/n you can't leave sasha.
me and Elle have been getting close, I know she's my online friend. But she means everything to me, I can't leave her. On the other hand I'm really close to my guy friend Corey.
he's really sweet. he does care it shows. I met his sister on FaceTime once, she's really pretty. But sometimes he doesn't make sense. I have a lot of good memories with Corey.It hurts to remember those memories.
Oh Corey.
time flies and I wish sometimes I could hug him. He turns 15 this year, yeah he is born in 2008. He smokes a lot, drinks too. He was out drinking with his older friend on New years and ended up passing out after vomiting everywhere. I felt bad when he showed me the video. I know he has some type of mental illness but I can't exactly put my finger on it.
However today Thursday 26th of January he blocked me on snap. after adding me 5 days after Christmas and telling me it was the last time he was blocking me. I knew he was lying but oh well.
We FaceTimed on January the 8th and he goes I swear it is the last time I'm blocking you.
and so I told him "Corey, you and I both know you're going to block me near the end of month and add me back after 1-3 months"
" No no I swear I won't block you it was the last time I was blocking you. Maybe it'll be you who'd be blocking me?" he looked me in the eyes as he said that.
"you and I. We both know I'm not blocking you" I giggled.
Gosh. It's like Kanye was right.'Wait a couple months and you gon see you'll never find anyone better than me'
funny.
You know when you finally start ignoring people and start hanging out with that one friend, that loves you as much as you love them. The relief you feel when you start ignoring everyone it calms the mind. You love that feeling, because you know it's the right thing to do but it's making other people mad that's when you know. Actually knowing and feeling that you're all alone, but knowing it's good feeling. Because you've never really been on you're own therefore you know you can do it.
Forgetting all of you're problems ever existed. Relying on yourself and you're mind is all you ever needed. Makes me bubble with excitement.
The feeling of knowing that you're best friend from the second grade will still be there makes me smile. Makes me feel warm and bubbly inside, cause you'll never truly know how that feeling feels until you've felt it inside. Knowing that you can go to school, come home and relax and study. Is the only two things one needs.
I used to hate school, never mind that I still do. Now I smoke cigarettes and vapes, studying? Not my thing. Homework? Don't know her. The only thing I know now is that you've got to do it on you're own. You'll never succeed in life with someone else's ideas or plans.
Sometimes all it takes is faith and trust in yourself to realize that you're the only one who actually understands you. Your whole body and mind connected in one. Does that really matter? no. But in the way I've seen it is that you've really got to be the bigger person in you're life, don't let anyone else be the bigger person. Dad or Mum? Or no parents? You've made it all this way no matter if you're suicidal or have mental illnesses.
I turn 15 in two months and you what I realized? Is that you don't turn 15, the truth is you've completed 15 years of you're life. No matter you're age like say you're 18 it doesn't mean you turned 18. It means you completed 18 years of you're life.
I really don't make any sense haha but hey that's me y/n you know. Never really making any sense.
YOU ARE READING
him.
Romance"Can we talk?" I asked him. he nods. ----- This is about two best friends who were extremely close, they'd do anything for each other. No matter if it's a happy ending or a sad ending everything happens for a reason.
