I'm so tired. not the tired people refer to from lack of sleep but the constant tired feeling you get when doing anything and takes a lot of energy out of you. When you don't know whether to try more or less it almost feels suffocating, like i'm being strangled by this unforeseen force. But how should I feel when that force can travel through my body at any time or moment it pleases. To be completely honest, I don't know. I'm not sure how to act anymore. Even just being around my friends you can tell how tired i am or as my friends would say "sad". But i'm not sad, or happy, i can't really feel anything at all actually. Everything just feels like static on a TV that is never ending. Nothing to do but wait till someone or something fixes it. I'm so tired all my motivation has gone away, but still i'm trying to make sure all my work is completed. Praying. Hoping that somehow, someway distracting myself will keep my mind off of the intrusive thoughts.
