Having to choose between my self respect and a soulmate was the hardest thing I've
ever had to do. I'm a lover not a heartbreaker. but i will not destroy myself for anyone else, not anymore at least. the old me would have endured all the pain in a heartbeat to not lose someone dear to me. but i am nothing like that naive little girl, i am everything she couldn't be at the time. After years of enduring so much darkness and pain I finally snapped. I became the person strived to be as a little girl. someone who is filled with so much love and gives it to the people who deserve that kind of unconditional love, of course with the exception of my self respect. I believe everyone deserves to be shown the love they deserve as long as they don't take advantage of that. One thing I've learned about the person I've grown to be is that I teach unconditional love to others and they teach me how to love myself. even if that person hurt me; in a way they still taught me more ways to love and honor myself fully. I realize now that prioritizing yourself and how things/people make you feel is a very valuable thing to learn in life, for that will be the thing that helps you understand yourself. so please to anyone reading this. prioritize your emotions and how things make you feel to finally understand the meaning of true unconditional self love.
