To be completely honest, I love you, and I will always will. You are the flame that lit up my life in the most beautiful way a person ever could, and because of you, I know what true love is. I cannot describe how much your love has meant to me, but I know that it is everything I have ever wanted. I can't keep hurting myself like this. I can't just keep holding onto you as if any time soon, you'll be running back to me and maybe you will but right now is not that time. There is nothing left for me to do, I feel like I've hit a wall, I don't know what I want and I have no idea how to move on without you. It took me so long to finally let you in, but once I had started to grasp it, it was gone. you weren't just my boyfriend; you were more than that. So how am I supposed to be okay with something that seemed like it would last forever just being gone in an instant. you were my best friend The only guy who really understood me. When I looked at you, I saw myself in a different body. we were so alike losing you feels like I lost a part of myself. I wish things could be different. I know we both could agree on that but I can't keep waiting and allow time to pass. I'll love you always, but for now I have to put myself first and heal from all the agony. Because I know I'll never forget you and the memories we shared, I hope you won't forget me either.
