Deep end |ENG|

• 11 · mom

Thursday. Same as Wednesday. Seungmin wouldn't look at me. He would simply ignore me. No laughter when I made a joke, just an expressionless face looking at me in that almost annoyed and maybe even disgusted way.

My heart was hurting to the point I was trying not to hold my chest. The day before, I was crying so much because of him yet he was still acting that way.

Why doesn't he just tell me he wants this to be over?

I left the school right before him and Minho, walking as fast as possible to get away from them. I was so sure I'd break down again if they started acting like they cared. I pulled out my phone, dialing my mom's number.

"Hi, Jinnie. How was your day?"

I felt relief wash over me, her voice bringing piece to my soul. "Hi, mom. It was good."

"What about Seungmin?"

I scoffed. "Trynna run away from him and Minho at the moment. They're walking almost right behind me and I really am not in the mood of talking to them."

"Let's talk more together then."

I smiled wide. "Sure. Thanks."

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"It's still weird though. Why is he acting this way?"

I was leaning on the doorframe with my shoulder, my mom cleaning the bathroom while talking to me.

"I don't have an idea. He just wouldn't talk to me and if yes, he'd start arguing and being mean as soon as possible. It's just weird and it's driving me crazy. Why won't he just tell me he doesn't wanna be a thing anymore?"

"Maybe he's scared."

"But we made a promise." I breathed out, devastated. "We told each other that after this is over, we'd stay friends. And I know it's not as easy as that but that was the only thing we told each other when getting together. And how are we gonna be friends after him acting like this?"

She pursed her lips. "I guess he's just childish. You know him after all..."

"I do but... I just thought he was more mature in such stuff. He'd always talk things out with me. Why would he act like this out of a sudden?"

"You know... Whenever guys wanted to break up with me, they'd act like this. They'd come late, then even later, not listening to me when I said something,... They made me break up with them because they didn't have the balls to do it themselves." Our gazes found each other in the mirror. "Maybe this is the same."

"I just... I'm so disappointed, you know?"

Yeji laughed from her room and I smiled as my gaze went in that direction. "She's calling with her friends again," I hummed.

"Of course. She's sick, she has to hold herself somehow. She misses them."

I nodded my head. "Yeah. I'm glad she has them."

I realised that at that point, I only had two friends and they both were online friends. Besides them, I had only my mom and my brother.

For some reason, it didn't feel that bad though.

Because I knew they at least really cared.

If you hadn't changed then I'd still be by your side.

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Sorry for being half an hour late!
(No, not even 24 hours were enough for me lol)

Some of you may know that I'm abroad for this summer. And this week, my friends came over to visit me. That's why I didn't have the time to publish this chapter until now, when I'm going back to my house and they're walking back to their hotel. Sorry again.

The next chapter will be released normally though :3