Deep end |ENG|

• 6 · shower

Sunday.

I was getting ready for the next week at school. I hoped to be happy I finally got to go back, however...

"Isn't this different though?"

I was standing in the shower, not able to get that sentence out of my head. Even when drying my hair, wishing my mom and Yeji good night,... Even when lying in bed, it was still in there.

And slowly, tears started filling my eyes.

Is this really the end? Is mom right?

I shushed all those thoughts away.

No. I'm sure Seungmin felt awkward texting me today so he'll wish me tomorrow. He wouldn't forget about my name's day, right?

With that hope, I fell asleep.

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I had a tutoring session on Monday morning so I first met Seungmin after a while when he came to the classroom. I was laid on the desk, half-asleep as he put his things down next to me.

I shot up, pulling my earphones out with a smile. I missed him. "Hi, love."

"Hi." No smile, no pet name, no... no anything.

He probably didn't sleep enough, he seems tired. Maybe he was preparing you something till late at night. You know how he is with his time management, doing everything last minute.

Nothing happened though. No "Happy name's day!" from him nor Minho and Changbin. Not like I was expecting it from those two but... Seungmin...

I was waiting the whole day but he ended up leaving the class before my arts seminar, only saying: "Bye," not sparing me one glance when doing so.

I was so hurt.

And the worst thing was... I didn't know what was about to happen that evening.

That whole week in general was the turning point for me. Long days filled with hurt and pain and even longer nights spent crying over a person who obviously didn't care anymore.

And now I'm truly all alone in this world.

I miss the way you felt so close to my bones.

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In the next chapter, the writing style will finally change to something that's more comfortable for me as an author so... yeah, get ready ^-^