Despite it all

Chapter two

- Welcome Amara, it's nice to see you !

She said and smiled.

I walked towards the couch before laying down, feeling the cold breeze coming from the open window, the smell of new brewed coffee and finally feeling like I'm safe. Being with the only person in the world who I feel understands me, respects me and care for me. I turned my head towards her, watching how she sat dow at her chair. She took her notebook in her hands and opened it, starting to write something. When she was done, she looked up, met my eyes and smiled.

- How are you?

- Empty, I answered. Watching her bright, happy face turn into a cold expression.

We talked a lot today. Even if I only have an hour to tell her what has happend the past week, it felt like I was there for 3 hours.

- Okay, Amara. Unfortunately our session is over, I will see you next week, and don't forget what I told you to do.

I smiled before hugging her goodbye. I hated it when my session was over. All I ever want to do is really just sit in there an talk, talk, talk. For hours if possible. It feels so nice to have someone that listens to me. I opened the door to walk out in the hallway and got blocked, the same male figure from last week stood infront of me, prepared to knock at the door. I looked up, meeting his beautiful eyes.

- Adrian, Hi!

Emelie said, sounding happier than ever. Is he a client here?

- What are you doing here? She continued

- Uhm, hi

He stammered, looking at me.

- I'm gonna go, see you next week Emelie. I said before leaving them.

I still didn't understand what he was doing there, thinking that what could possibly be so wrong that he had to go to a therapist. I know everyone has their own problems, it just never occurred to me that someone like Adrian would go here.

I continued walking by the road. It was a one hour walk until I got home, but I didn't care. I loved being far away from home, just walking, quietly, in my own mind. I watched the sun set by the ocean and the stars appearing slowly on the sky. I tried to take small steps, only so I wouldn't get home while mom and dad is awake. They usually falls asleep pretty early, since they drink all day and gets tired easily.

I heard a vehicle approaching me from behind and stopped beside me. I turned around and saw Adrian.

- Where you going all by yourself? He asked

- I'm just going home

- It's dark and late, let me drive you

I thought about it for a few second. if he drives me, there is a chance my parents are still awake and that is not something I want to risk.

- It's okay

- My mom would kill me if she knew I let a girl walk home alone during night

I paused..

- I.. uhm.. Actually.. I really don't want to go home right now

I looked at him, trying my hardest not to cry in front of him. He didn't say anything, just looked back at me for a while until he opened the car door in an effort for me to get in.

I sighed before I got in to his car and he drove away. We drove around for a little bit, not talking much. But I'm not gonna lie, it was a really nice car.

- So, what do you want to eat?

I turned my head to him and brought out a little smile. Is he doing this just because I didn't want to go home?

- Eat? I asked him

- Yeah, where do you wanna go? McDonald's?

I shook my head a little, not a fan of McDonald's.

- In-N-out?

I shook my head again.

- Dunkin'?

I started to smile a little, he laughed. I'm a big fan of doughnuts though..

- That's not food, it's practically dessert

He said while laughing at me, I nodded at him and he just looked at me with his beautiful fucking smile.

- Okayyy fine, Dunkin' it is

I was looking out through the window and started to smile when he said that. If my parents knew that I was in a boy's car right now they would literally kill me. I really really hoped that they would be asleep by the time I got home.

We arrived at Dunkin' and walked in. The place was almost empty, only a few people in here which was nice since I'm not a fan of places with a lot of people.

- Take whatever you want, I'll pay

He said and started to look at the menu above the front desk. I looked at him, his cheekbones were probably the most attractive thing on his face, except for his eyes, and smile? And I almost forgot his hair. Okay, yeah, he is the most perfect guy alive.

We ordered our doughnuts and sat down at a table by the window. He sat in front of me and our eyes met, have I mentioned his eyes are the most beautiful I've ever seen? Yeah probably.

- So, Amara, tell me something about you

- Well, what do you want to know?

- Something, like, what do you do on your free time?

- Oh uhm, except for studying, not much

- Really?

- Mhm, and you?

- Same

We talked a little more and kept eating. After we ate our doughnuts, he got a call, stood up and walked away while I just continued sitting there. After a few minutes he got back with a disappointing face expression.

- I am so sorry, but I have to go

- Nono it's okay, I totally understand

- Let me drive you home

- No please no, I don't want to be a burden

He walked closer to me until I almost could feel him breathing. He took a hair piece that was in the way in front of my face and put it behind my ear.

- I can never imagine you being a burden

I couldn't stop myself from smiling so big and It felt like my heart would jump out of my body. No guy has ever told me that before. My dad always yells at me for being in the way and not good enough for anything.

- It's totally fine, I only have a five minute walk from here

- You sure?

- Yes! Go go

- Okay okay

He hugged me before leaving in a hurry. When I said five minutes, I actually meant twentyfive. But it didn't really matter, I was just happy that he didn't dropped me off I front of my house. I thought about everything that had just happened, I had just hung out with the most popular guy from school whom I had a crush on since freaking kindergarten. A part of me believed that he is just playing and he treats every other women like this, but another part really wanted this night to be special for him. At least, I hoped so.

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