MATTHEW'S POV
months had passed and i've been taking xyree out here and there
we've gone to a lot of place like in an amusement park, sea side, malls, gardens etc.
wala namang bago sa dates namin, actually meron pala
everytime xyree and i will go on a date the next day gavin will ask her out too
it make me jealous with the thought of how much xyree will enjoy her time with gavin
from the start, i knew na lugi ako kay gavin
he's xyree's first love and childhood crush it's obvious that i lost the war before it even start
but i gamble in the game of love anyway, that's how much i love xyree
i don't expect her to love me back but of course i still wish and hope that she'll love me
i still hope that she'll choose me over gavin
i still hope that she'll be mine
"hey, what are you thinking? you okay?" i heard xyree asked
i took the food out of her hands, she insisted to buy our food
"yeah, okay lang ako" i said and smiled at her
i almost forgot, we're at the cinema to watch a movie
"okay, tara na magsisimula na 'yung movie" xyree said
hinatak niya na ako papasok ng sine
we found our seat and sat there
as soon as we sat, the movie started
we watched the movie and we didn't even notice that it ended already
"tara sa park?" i asked her
"yeah, sure" she replied
we got in my car and i drove off to the park
i got the beer i bought earlier
"here" i said at inabot ang beer na hawak konkay xyree
inabot naman niya 'to
"i took you here because i wanted us to talk" i said as i took a deep breath
"hmm? talk about what?" she asked cluelessly
"xy be honest with me, do you still love gavin?" i asked
it took her a couple of minutes before she answered
"yes" she replied and i saw tears running down her face
i cupped her cheeks
"why are you crying?" i asked
"it's just that, i feel guilty because you've done so much for me to get over gavin but here i am" she said
i took a deep breath before i answered
"it's okay xy, 'di mo naman mapipigilan sarili mo eh" i replied
i hugged her and she cried
"xy, you need to choose between me and gavin" i said
"what? right now? but why?" she asked
"kase ikaw lang mahihirapan" i replied
she separated from our hug and looked down
i held her chin and made her look at me
"sinong mas matimbang diyan sa puso mo? don't lie and be honest, don't feel guilty or what" i said
"xy, i want you to know that no matter what your decision is i will respect it and i'll stay by your side no matter what hmm?" i continued
i saw her tears continuously falling down her cheeks
"i-i love you but i love gavin more" she said
but i love gavin more
but i love gavin more
but i love gavin more
but i love gavin more
parang sirang plaka na nagpaulit ulit sa utak ko 'yung sinabi ni xyree
damn that hurt so much than i thought
i sighed as i look at her, she's facing down again
i cupped her cheeks
"it's okay, if you'll choose him i'm fine with it remember when i told you that i'm not expecting anything from the very start? i'm sticking with that, it's totally fine xy" i said as i bitterly smiled
"i'm sorry matt, i'm really sorry" she said as she hugged me
i hugged her back, she cried in my shoulders
i'm okay, i'm really okay
i'm not okay...
