Lurking Underneath

Chapter 28: Can't Keep it

Sasha POV: "Pamela...I-I'm Scared!" I said as I was being wheeled into the C-section room. "I'm right here baby." Pamela said as she was squeezing my hand as we had gotten to the room. I could feel the doctor cutting my stomach open as well as my organs and intestines being moved around but after a couple of minutes the epidural had kicked in and I felt fine. "We have her out but she's not breathing! Get her to the NICU Right now!" I heard the doctors say as I saw them running out with the baby really fast. I had a shit load of thoughts running through my head just dreading that the baby might be dead or if Sheldon knew that the baby was gone "Pam What's...Happening?" I started blacking out because I was so anxious "Mercedes...Mercedes...Merce-" Just then everything went black. "Baby? Hey You can wake up now. It's okay..." I was starting to stir as i was hearing Pamela's voice "Baby?" "Baby? Baby?" "Where's the baby!" I said as I pretty much sprang out of bed only to get a shooting pain which made me lie back down almost immediately "Mercedes. Hey you're going to be okay." She said as she kissed me. "Where's the baby? Is it dead?" I asked Pamela hoping she'd give me good news but i felt something off when she pulled the chair close to my bed "I have both good and Bad news babe." She said as she held my hand "You actually were pregnant with twins which explains why your stomach was a lot larger than most pregnancies. The good news is the girl did survive and the doctors are going to bring her in just a little a while, but the bad news is that the boy got strangled while in the womb and was long gone before the C-section." Pamela said. I just remained silent as i was stunned to learn that I was growing two of Sheldon's kids in my stomach only to find out that one lived while one died but I knew there was a little bit of time before the doctors brought the baby in and so I decided I would tell Pamela that I don't want the baby. "Baby." I finally said, "Yes Mercedes?" "A-Are you going to leave me. If I gave the baby up to Colby and Rebecca?" I asked as I felt tears in my eyes "What do you mean baby?" Pamela asked me. "It's just...I don't want to be reminded of Sheldon everyday for the rest of my life if i kept HIS Child. And just the thought of having to tell the kid what her father did to me...Pamela Can I please Give the Baby to Colby and Rebecca I know they'll take good care of the baby. Please Pamela. I just don't want to think about Sheldon ever again." I finished saying as I finally started crying. 
Bayley POV: "Yes Mercedes?" I had asked Mercedes who looked really upset "A-Are you going to leave me. If I gave the baby up to Colby and Rebecca?" She asked me as I tears in her eyes "What do you mean baby?" I asked her. "It's just...I don't want to be reminded of Sheldon everyday for the rest of my life if i kept HIS Child. And just the thought of having to tell the kid what her father did to me...Pamela Can I please Give the Baby to Colby and Rebecca I know they'll take good care of the baby. Please Pamela. I just don't want to think about Sheldon ever again." Mercedes finished saying as she finally started crying. I knew what I was also thinking and just as I was going to tell her what I was going to say there was a knock at the door and saw the doctors wheeling in the baby who was swaddled in a butterfly blanket sleeping peacefully. "We're going to leave you two alone with your child Call us if you need anything" The nurse said as walked out leaving us two alone with the newborn Baby Girl. I could feel Mercedes anxiety kicking in just knowing that she didn't want the baby. "Mercedes. If you don't want the baby. I'm okay with that okay. It's your decision only I'll support you in whatever you want to do. And I understand why you don't want the baby. Hell, I would've been okay if you wanted to get an abortion but since the government banned abortion you had to carry the babies full term. At least we gave one of the babies a chance to thrive. But I'm okay with your decision and I won't leave you I promise." I said as I kissed her. "Th-Thank you." She said. "Your welcome. Now just relax okay." I said as she laid her head on the pillow. We both just looked the baby sleeping for a couple of minutes before there was a knock at the door "Come in." Mercedes said. We both saw Colby and Rebecca walk in with some flowers and the nurse was right behind them too. "Hey guys. How are you doing Mercedes?" Colby asked Mercedes "I'm just in a lot of pain but i'll be okay. Thanks though." She said as Rebecca handed her the flowers. The nurse was taking Mercedes blood pressure and asking how her C-Section scar is doing when Mercedes said "Um Colby Rebecca. I wanted you guys to know...That Um..." I held her hand as I feel her start crying "I wanted to let you know that You guys are now Parents. This wasn't an easy decision for both of us but  I...I want you two to be the child's parents...If that's okay with you guys I know you guys want to have kids of your own but can't so...If you don't mind." Mercedes said but I could tell she wanted to cry because She was right. 

This is a hard decision for any woman who's a victim of Sexual Assault and forced to carry a child that they didn't want because they automatically get labeled as a bad mom or some shit like that. "Of course Mercedes. We'd love too." Rebecca said as she hugged Mercedes who just started crying "Mercedes. Listen to me okay. Just because you don't want to the child doesn't mean your a bad person. You're not A bad Person okay. And you're not the only one who's had to this hard decision, so don't let this decision affect you for the rest of your life. You still have an amazing fiancé who loves you and supports you and we will support you too." Rebecca said. I knew this was a hard decision but it's her decision after all. After a while Colby and Rebecca left for the night and would be back to pick up the baby tomorrow since they already did the paperwork to adopt the baby and so Mercedes and I could get some rest too. After I helped Mercedes use the bathroom, I decided to help her take a shower. It was pretty hard for Mercedes since she had to keep the wound from getting wet for today since it's only been about 4 hours since the doctors opened her up, so the wound is  technically still fresh but she was leaning on me through her whole shower just crying but she wouldn't tell me why which was hard because I want to ease her pain but I don't know if it's from her wound or her feeling guilty about not keeping the baby or possibly Sheldon but I don't want to ask her until we go home tomorrow where we can in peace. "Come on Baby. Let's get you dressed so you could get some rest okay." I said as I slowly walked with her still crying in my shoulder. Once we got to her bed I helped her sit down slowly on this adult diaper that the nurse gave us since she was going to be bleeding for a day or two depending on how her body is feeling. I helped put the diaper on her and then the gown as she slowly lifted her legs to swing them onto the bed. I made sure she was comfortable before tucking her in and kissing her goodnight as I shut the light off and went to grab a blanket to sleep on those long chairs when Mercedes called me. "You feeling okay?" I asked her "Can you just lay with me so I can sleep please?" She asked me "Sure Baby." I said while climbing into her bed as she nuzzled her head into my chest as comfortably as she could because she can't physically lay on her side due to the C-section. As I pulled my blanket over me  I could hear her whimpering and I could her tears hitting my shirt so I had a feeling she was going to cry herself to sleep but after a couple of minutes of gently singing into her ear and slightly rubbing her back she was asleep, but before I went to sleep I gave her a kiss on the head before saying "I'll always take care of you baby. And I won't let Sheldon go anywhere near you again." I finished saying before kissing her head one last time as I laid my head down next to hers so I could get some rest too. I don't know what's going to happen from here on out but I'll make sure to Protect Mercedes.