sturniolo triplets !! oneshots

hug-madi

TW: eating

•madi•
N: where's madi?
I heard Nick say but I was still waking up. I started to move around and my eyes slowly adjusted to the light. For a minute I saw Nick looking for me, Chris cuddling Matt and everyone else figuring out breakfast.
M: I'm awake Nick
I waved my hand from under the duvet.
N: your concerning me with all these tiktok audios girl
He says jokingly.
I laugh it off. But he knows I didn't find it very funny.
N: wait are you actually okay?
I love nick he's my bestfriend, he knows everything about me but there is one thing he doesn't know, I'm not okay. Everyday I feel like I could break down into a million pieces at any second, I feel sick when I think about eating, I feel mentally exhausted after I do a simple task. I'm just not good at explaining these things.

•nick•
I saw madis face go straight. I knew I'd messed up. But she knows she can talk to me right? I hope I haven't failed as a bestfriend. I love Madi she does so much for me I'd hate to see her upset.
N: Mads
I say frowning in sympathy as I watch her eyes fill with tears.
N: what's wrong beautiful?
She didn't answer me and just began to cry.
N: hug?
I asked opening my arms out.
She fell straight into them.
She balled.

•madi•
M: I'm sorry
N: for what sweetheart? Want to talk about it?
M: okay
Me and Nick head to the couch and I now have everyone on the tour bus concerned for me. I bury my head into nicks chest and then wipe the tears from my eyes.
Matt: you okay?
M: I will be
I say smiling.
N:talk to us
Chris smiles at me, making me feel safe.
Resting my head on nicks shoulder I begin to speak.
M: it kinda feels like everything I do is wrong, or im just not how I want to be, and I don't understand myself I have amazing friends and a great life but I get overwhelmed so easily and I've felt so exhausted after anything all I wanna do is cry...and sleep.
I chuckle and sigh at the end of my paragraph.

It felt kind of good to talk about my feelings, because I know they won't tell anyone and they'll be there for me. Nick held me tight all night and we all watched a movie together and I felt okay. Although my feelings wont go away, when I need a break I know where to go.