sturniolo triplets !! oneshots

depression-nick

TW: anxiety, depression

•nick•
this past week my stomachs been hurting, I have a headache everyday, my rooms been a mess, I don't have the energy to film, I feel mentally exhausted and I've lost all motivation to do anything, and I've barley come out my room, I've stopped texting everyone and I've even blanked Matt and Chris, Madi too, I'm so confused. I don't want to stop socialising and I want to film but I can't find it in me. I feel sick to my stomach when I think about getting up and doing things.

•matt•
On Monday I went to wake up Nick and he looked rough, he hadn't showered since 2 days ago and we got into an argument about it. So me and Chris left him alone for the day until he apologised for yelling.
On Tuesday we went to see Mom and Dad but Nick didn't come. Mom got really mad since we hadn't seen them in a while, once again we left nick alone for a while. On Wednesday we filmed a vlog but nick was hardly in it and he edited it last minute. On Thursday Nick didn't come out his room once not even for food and he ignored us when we tried to speak to him. On Friday nick claimed he was sick but he still filmed with us but he barely said anything and there was a lot of comments about it. On Saturday Nick slept for 16 hours and still said he was tired. And now it's Sunday 4pm and Nick hasn't opened his blinds in 4 days. And me and Chris are thinking of video ideas and we've asked Nick to join us but it just ended up in an argument.

•nick•
I've been such a bitch all week to Matt and Chris and pretty much everyone I've spoken too. Madi was mad at me cause I hadn't answered her texts in 5 days and mom was not happy with me. All this came crashing down on me and I felt so overwhelmed. I don't know what's wrong with me. Now it's Sunday 4pm and my brothers are mad I'm not helping them with video ideas. I feel really guilty. I got up and felt dizzy cause I haven't eaten in a while I also smelt horrible so I had a long shower and washed my hair and that swiped all the energy out of me. My room was a pit and dark and disgusting. But I can't clean it. I walked outside my bedroom and Matt and Chris were making dinner.

•chris•
As I got something out the fridge I turned round to see Nick come out his room hair washed and new clothes but he looked extremely tired even though he's been sleeping all day and all night.
C: "oh hi Nick." I said a bit shocked.
That caught Matt's attention.
M: "long time no see."
Nick just nodded.
M: "making food want some?"
N: "what is it?"
M: "pasta"
N: "okay but not a lot"
I nodded and smiled but I got a blank face back.
C: "what?" I said with attitude before matt nudged me knowing it would cause conflict.
N: "nothing" he said walking straight back into his room slamming the door behind him.

•matt•
Whilst Chris carried on with the pasta I thought it was time to get some words out of nick. How he's been acting towards everyone is getting to a point I'm just frustrated. But when I walked into nicks room without knocking cause i knew he wouldn't answer I found him sat up against his wall staring at the ceiling with nothing but laundry surrounding him.
M: "what are you doing?" I asked confused at first.
But when he looked at me, he was about to cry.

•nick•
As soon as Matt walked in and saw me sat on the floor surrounded by dirty clothes and random stuff I felt so disappointed in myself when I saw his face. He looked almost scared. He was just as confused as I was. Now we were just staring at each other but tears spilled out from my eyes. Matt didn't say anything he jut picked me up off the ground and hugged me tight and that's when I lost it. I started to get really angry and pushed myself away from Matt and picked up my cushions and threw them at my wall and started kicking the wall with my foot. Before matt rushed over and pulled me away. I clenched my fists. But Chris walked in and I tried to leave the room but he wouldn't let me. he sat me down on the bed. I had a brother either side of me.
I was trying to get my breath back when I felt Matt's hand rub my shoulder lightly. I don't understand why neither of them were mad at me and they didn't say anything either.
N: "sorry" I mumbled annoyed at myself.
Chris rested his head on my shoulder and Matt pulled my hand into his lap and held it.
N: "I'm not okay"
M: "we know"
Matt and Chris look at each other and chuckle a sigh of relief.

•Matt•
M: "me and Chris have been talking about you these past few days and we've both realised you need help."
N: "gee thanks"
C: "not in a horrible way"
Nick scoots behind out of the way of me and Chris and gets in his bed and lies on his stomach.
I get up and go round to the side he's on.
M: "sit up for a sec"
As he sits up I slide in the bed and open my arms up. He lays back down with his head on my stomach and led on his stomach. Chris sits to the side of Nick and rubs his back.
C: "we don't want you to get worse"
M: "you can't be like this forever Nick"
C: "we think your depressed"
Chris says whilst I wrap my arms around him.
Those words sunk in I could see it on his face.
N: "yeah"
He simply says.
M: "Nick your not okay sweet"
N: "I want help"
Me and Chris smile.
M: "and we'll make sure to get you that"
N: "I love you"
C: "we love you too"
M: "and we'll never stop"