sturniolo triplets !! oneshots

happiness-nick

TW: Depression, Sucidal

Nick has been telling us he's not okay for a while now. But it's not like he's getting around it. He keeps coming out with dark jokes or phrases that are a bit too personal...anyway it's starting to worry us a bit. Chris and me (matt) were sat on the couch yesterday and nick said, "If i died would you care?." And these are the things that I said to him. 1. Nick your not dying anytime soon. 2. Obviously we would care that's a stupid question. 3. And three why'd you ask?
Nick walked away. Then yesterday me and Chris were hanging out and we asked Nick but he refused to come out his room even though we had to film later.

•chris•
it's been a month and me and Matt feel hopeless. We love nick and we can't give up on him, but we don't know what to do. At first we thought he was joking with all this stuff. But ever since he broke down in Malcom's arms on tour, we've started to believe it. But me and Matt don't understand what's wrong with him. He told us he felt depressed and we told him we could help him and he's been to therapy a few times but he's hated every time. And we've told him not to give up on it but he did after 5 sessions.

•matt•
And I don't like to call Nick hard work...but he is. me and Chris are trying to be calm with him when he has a meltdown and we try not to argue with him as much and just let him get away with yelling at us, because we thought him letting his anger out would make him more happy but it might be worse.

I love nick I do, and so does Chris, but he's making his life so hard for himself. He won't let anyone help him not even mom and dad. Chris and I just want Nick back. But where do we start?

•chris•
It's 4pm and we've done fuck all all day. I'm bored and I want some food so I go ask Matt is he wants any.
C: matt do you want any snacks?
M: yes please!
He shouts from his bedroom. Easy peasy now nick...
C: one more thing!
M: yeah?!
C: come out here!
M: what's up?
M: you're scared to talk to Nick aren't you?
C: no...
I looked down.

•matt•
M: come on let's go ask him if he wants anything
After yesterday, Chris is scared to talk to nick, which he shouldn't feel like that but after what happened...
Yesterday Chris went to see if Nick was awake and if he wanted any breakfast. Turns out nick was still asleep and he definitely didn't want any breakfast. Let's just say yesterday morning was horrible for the both is us but especially Chris.
M: come on Chris it won't be that bad just knock before you go in
I pat him on the back
C: okay
We both walked to nicks bedroom and braced ourselves before knocking.
M: hey Nick? It's me and Chris
I said.
N: what do you want?
M: Nick come on
C: do you..do you want any...food?
N: um ye sure
C: okay
Chris smiled.
I could tell by nicks tone of voice that he felt bad for yelling yesterday.
C: uh what do you want?
Chris was biting his nails.
We both stood outside the door intensely waiting for a response. Why do we feel scared to speak to our own brother?
N: I don't mind anything will do
We hear the door knob twist and we step back from the door to see a tired nick with a blanket wrapped around his shoulders.
M: oh hi didn't think you were gonna come out your room today
Shit why did I say that.
N: oh you want me to go back in? Cause I can-
M: no stay here
Chris turned nick around gently.
N: can I talk to you both?
Me and Chris make eye contact subtly.
C: course you can
M: yeah sure
N: couch?
I nod.
C: okay

•nick•
Lately I've been feeling completely mentally drained. My body feels numb and I just want to feel myself again. Matt and Chris are my only hope for happiness and I feel like they are slowly giving up on me too.
M: so what is it?
I come out of my daydream. Matt and Chris either side of me. I could see the anxiety in Chris's eyes.
N: we'll I'm really sorry for shouting yesterday at both of you and I'm really sorry Chris for saying I never want to speak to you again and I hate-
C: don't repeat it
N: yeah maybe I shouldn't but im not just sorry for yesterday.
For the past week I've been thinking about how I've acted and honestly I've been a shit brother I haven't even checked up on either of them.
N: we'll Ive been thinking...just how I've been treating you two, and I'm really sorry, you don't have to forgive me and I understand why you wouldn't but I want you to know it's not you, I just want to change and be how I used to and learn how to cope with my struggles and it's hard when you are my only hope and I don't want you to give up on me because I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you both I could go on all day but your my happiness and I need that back and it is my a fault for locking myself away from the happiness but I don't know where the key is at the moment and I'm getting there I will find it, I just need time. If thats okay? I'll still try and be myself for the videos and the streams but I can't fake it around you, i mean we live together.
Matt and Chris stare at me blankly for a moment.
M: oh nick
Matt looks terrified.
N: I'm sorry
C: thank god you told us that
M: we will listen all day if you need us too and we're not giving up on you
C: you don't need to be sorry
Chris rested his head on my shoulder and a tear shed from his eye. Matt stood up and hugged me.
M: I promise you you will get that happiness back, but Nick it never left
C: we never left and we never will, your not going through anything alone
And that's when I cried.

I listened to Matilda by Harry styles whilst writing this and I actually cried.
"You can let it go, you can throw a party full of everyone you know, and not invite your family, cause they "never showed you love." You don't have to be sorry for doing it on your own." I don't know why but I felt like that fitted😭anyways have a good day or night :)! And if anyone has suggestions for oneshots or sickfics let me know! I'll try my best to do them!