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cheated-nick

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dear diary,                                        9th November 2022

wow. i just got cheated on. i cant believe it. not that this happened because I have doubted him recently, but that I haven't cried yet. I'm just so shocked to the point I feel numb. like nothing is worth this much pain. i was with my boyfriend Louie (i made up) , for about 6 months it doesn't sound long but you should see the amount of pages in this diary. Me and Louie were like glue we did everything together and we were also the best of friends. My brothers also became close with him and my parents loved him, especially my dad, and I was very close with his sisters and brothers. Louie was there for me when I needed him and he never failed to put a smile on my face until today. Louie has been figuring out who he was for a while now. when I met him he was gay. then he turned bi and now he's straight? i don't know why he'd do this to me. it's fine if your figuring out who you are but I could have helped him through that instead of falling in love and getting too attached. he just used me to figure out who he was and then all I got was a text saying sorry I've been seeing a girl for a while now I don't want to speak to you ever again. harsh. it's been 2 hours since it's happened and I've just been staring at the text. has this really just happened? have I really just been told that my own boyfriend was seeing a girl the majority of the time we were together and now I've got another text! i was having sex with her too. my god. for real? i can't believe him. i loved you Louie. Bye diary.

M:Nick?
i was still staring at our texts but I had started to move my eyes to the Polaroids of us on my wall.
M: Hello?
i heard him.
M: can I come in?
N: no I'm changing!
i wasn't.
i finally realised that there were multiple tears gradually making their way down my face onto my phone. i scrunched up my sleeve and wiped it away.
M: are you done?
N: WHAT DO YOU WANT?
i snapped in tears and anger.
M: never mind then god Nick your so rude sometimes!
C: what's going on?
N: NOT YOU TO PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!
C: we're going, we're gonna leave you for a bit.
M: let's just go.

4 hours later it was now 7pm I was getting hungry for dinner so I sat up and looked at myself in the mirror to see my baggy eyes and dreary face. i felt this weird anger towards everything I felt so unwanted so used and so heartbroken. I went to the kitchen with a blanket over my shoulders and saw the small amount of food we had in the fridge. i always make dinner for Matt and Chris so I made them some stuff to hopefully make up for the screaming but honestly I couldn't bring myself to even go and see them. how was I going to tell them about this? they will probably think it's my fault.

After I knocked on their bedroom doors I left the food outside and went back to my room. i was starving but couldn't bring myself to look at the food anymore. what if it's cause of what I looked like? or the way I act? or was I too self-Centered? was my personality not good enough? I had 1000 things running through my mind and I brought myself to take a few bites of my dinner. until I placed it on the side and began to cry again this time realising it. i was waiting for the 'how was your day?' text or the 'are you okay?' 'You haven't texted back in a while what's up?' but i didn't get any of it. load of bullshit.

it's now midnight and I'm still awake and for the past hour I've been staring at my ceiling with my knees to my chest thinking about all the memories that I'm going to have to wipe from my brain. but I got a knock.

C: night nick!
I didn't respond I was in such a state. I didn't hear anything else after that so I guess he thought I was asleep. I couldn't fall asleep without a thought bouncing in my mind so I went to take a shower where I found myself crying staring into the mirror with my head in my hands on the counter ready to bring a sharp tool to my wrist. my hands trembled in fear as I brung the object closer and closer to my wrist now biting my lips to where they are bleeding.

Blood trickled down my arm. I wiped my tears with now blood on my face. The now bloody tears were giving me a headache as I slid down the wall having the biggest breakdown I've had in a while. i felt myself bring my knees to my chest once again and my face buried into my elbows.

The warm water of the shower felt so good but burned so bad. My face was now numb and my whole body felt sore. As i stood out the shower I threw on a jumper to cover the now cuts all up my arms and threw on some shorts. i climbed into bed alone with no-one to hold I felt so disappointed in myself.

•chris•
C: what is up with Nick?
I asked Matt crawling into bed with him cause I couldn't get the nick situation out my mind.
M: honestly I don't know just let him be like that he'll come running back to us just you wait
C: mhm
M: hey he'll be okay he's probably just had a hard day or something
C: should I text Louie?
M: oh yeah maybe he might know why he's acting like this
N: DONT TEXT LOUIE!
Nick comes bursting through the door as pale as a ghost and blood on his hands.
M: Nick what's going on? Are you okay? What happened?
C: why? What have you done? What's he done? You good?

•nick•
All these questions were flying at me from all directions and I didn't know how to react. i just felt so out of it. I felt the blood dry up on my hands which sent a shiver down my spine.
M: Nick what's on your hands?
I looked at my hands and then looked at Matt and Chris with my face about to break down. and it did just exactly that.
N: I'm so sorry I'm so sorry Im really sorry I shouldn't have done it I'm so disappointed in myself I thought I'd never bring myself to ever do that again I did and I'm so sad and I'm so sor...
M: Nick stop! We love you
Matt got up from his bed and gave me a hug and I rested my head on his shoulder.
M: slow down and take some deep breaths for me
Matt always knew how to calm me down.
C: we love you Nicky
Chris said now joining the hug.
Matt lifted my sleeves up to find what he was hoping he wasn't going to find.
M: Nick
Matt said with a sad face
N: I'm so sorry...
C: we can get through this nick we're here it's okay
M: Nick sweetheart do you want to tell us what's happened?
N: Louie cheated on me.
Matt and Chris then sat me down on the bed and told me to relax my shoulders and I poured my heart out to them.
M: you know we love you Nick? You don't need silly boys
C: yeah you'll always have us Nicky we love you and we always will
N: I love you guys so much I'm so sorry for earlier
M: you don't have to be sorry Nick not one bit.