I Can't

Part 2

TW! Eating disorder

When I got up it smelled like pancakes. I don't wanna eat anything.

"George?" Dream peaked his head into my room.

"Morning," I said, rubbing my eyes.

"Morning. You feeling any better?"

That's it. That's a good excuse.

"Eh, not really."

"Do you want something to eat? Sap made pancakes."

"I don't think I can eat right now. Thanks though."

"Alright, let me know if you need anything. Wanna come downstairs?"

"Sure why not."

I went downstairs with Dream and went on my phone to distract myself from the smell. It smelled so good, I really wanted to eat some.

"You sure you don't want any?" Sap asked with a mouthful of pancakes.

"I'm good, thanks though."

"Why not? You always eat breakfast, you love pancakes."

Dream chimed in.

"He got sick last night from the burrito, he said he's still not feeling the best."

"Ah ok."

Time passed and it was almost lunch time.

"George, we're going out for burgers, come on," Dream said.

"Oh um, I'm not hungry."

"How are you not hungry? You haven't eaten since last night."

"I still feel kinda sick. I'll come with though, I'll get a drink or something."

"Alright, get in the car."

I got up and went to the car. Once we got to the restaurant, Dream and Sap ordered their burgers and I got a water. They kept asking me if I was sure I wasn't hungry. I don't know what else to tell them. I can only keep up the "I don't feel good" act for today otherwise they'll make me go to a doctor. Last time I had a sore throat for a few days Dream made me see a doctor even though it was just allergies. It's sweet how much he cares, but it also makes it harder to lie to him about this.

The smell of the burgers made me even hungrier than before. Maybe I should just eat something. I can just throw it up later right? No, I can't eat. I can't.

Dinner time came around quicker than ever. Is this what my life is gonna be like from now on?

"George you should really eat something, you haven't eaten all day."

"I just haven't felt good, that's all."

"Even so, you still need to eat. Do you still feel sick? Because you know if you still feel nauseous I'm gonna drag you to the doctor."

"No no I'm fine, I'm just not hungry."

"How can you not be hungry. It's 7 pm and you haven't eaten all day..." Dream's voice trailed off into thought.

Shit.

"I'll be right back," Sapnap said.

Once he left the room, Dream came and sat next to me.

"Is this because of what chat said?"

"No I'm just not hungry okay?!" I got up angrily but stopped in my tracks.

"George?" Dream said.

I got dizzy, stumbling back a few steps.

"I'm fine," I said, regaining balance.