Mind Games - Win or Lose

Chapter - 12

It had been a little over a month since Dr. Marda had seen Eda Bolat. After her last visit she was wondering what she was going to walk into today. She was especially concerned that Eda had pushed her visit back so Dr. Marda was pleasantly surprised to see that both of the Bolat's were present for this visit.

"Serkan bey it's nice to see you here. Eda hanim, how have you been feeling?"

"Good, one or two dizzy spells but other than that no problems."

Dr. Marda looked at Eda's chart to see her test results, "Your blood pressure is good as is your iron level, and blood sugar. If you're ready we can take a look at the baby."

Eda got up on the table, Serkan stood next to her, holding her hand. Dr. Marda was thrilled to see this show of affection considering Eda hanim's last visit.

"If baby is cooperating today we should be able to find out the gender, I'm assuming that you want to know this time as well?"

Serkan looked at Eda, it was her choice, "Yes, if you can tell we definitely want to find out."

"Eda thinks it's a boy," explained Serkan.

She looked at him, she didn't know that she did, "I do?"

Dr. Marda was ignoring both of them as she worked the wand through the gel, "Let's see if I can get the right spot. . . . .There, it looks like Eda hanim is right you are having a boy. Let me get my measurements now."

Eda was still staring at the screen. They were having a boy? She thought that she was having a boy? Apparently she didn't have too many of her memories back. As long as the baby was healthy she didn't care. She knew that Serkan didn't care either way not with the way he loved Kiraz.

"I'll see you in a month, let me know if anything changes. It was good to see both of you today," and Dr. Marda was out of the room. The box of wipes had already been handed to Serkan.

He took several out of the box. Before he wiped the gel from Eda he held up the wipes, "Do you mind if I do this?"

"No?" Eda watched as Serkan cleaned the gel off her stomach, once he was done he bent down and rested his cheek against her bump before turning to deposit a kiss for their baby. "Is this some kind of ritual for you Serkan?"

His ears pinked a little bit, and he shrugged, "I've done it at every OB visit, if it bothers you I won't do it again."

"You can keep doing it Serkan, it's kind of cute. . . . . . . Why didn't you tell me that I thought that we were having a boy?" Eda asked as she swung her legs off the table.

"We haven't talked a lot about this baby and the pregnancy. I wasn't sure if you wanted to after everything so I didn't mention it."

Eda rested her head on Serkan chest, "And now you have to leave. We didn't get to talk last night or this morning. I feel like we're back to that first week again where I never see you because you're always working. You weren't supposed to leave until tomorrow."

Serkan kissed the top of her head, "I wish I wasn't going today. We just found out late yesterday that the investors will be there in the morning and we have to be there for a meeting. That was why Engin and I both were at the office so late yesterday. I have the camera to video the site for you, I remembered what you told me to do."

They walked out of the exam room together to make Eda's next appointment before heading to the car. Eda felt like there was still a barrier in between them since they hadn't gotten a chance to talk after yesterday's appointment. She needed to talk to him about what she had said about this baby and her last visit with Dr. Marda hoping that he would understand how confused she was when she was there. Even when she thought back to that visit now she was afraid of what she almost did, Eda was so thankful that she was far enough along in her pregnancy that it wasn't an option. She wouldn't have been able to forgive herself, she was having a hard enough time forgiving herself for even thinking about it.