Mind Games - Win or Lose

Chapter - 9

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Serkan looked at Eda, her head had tilted over against the seat as she nodded off on the way home. She seemed to enjoy herself. She could sleep in since Kiraz was at her grandparents, they would go get her at lunch. He was thinking about Hakan's idea of hypnosis, he wondered if that would help, he needed a miracle now. It had been a month since her fall, she had another OB appointment next week, he was afraid that he was going to miss yet another one. He tried not to dwell on the depressing thoughts as he drove the rest of the way home but they kept coming back to his mind. Serkan pulled into the gate and down the driveway to park the car.

He walked around to Eda's door and opened it, he reached in and undid her seatbelt before trying to wake her, "Eda, we're home." She slept on, so he reached in to lift her out. He had to stand her on her feet to unlock the door but picked her up and carried her in straight up to her bed. Serkan laid Eda gently down removing her shoes before putting her under the covers fully dressed.

Eda woke a few hours later to use the bathroom, she saw that she was in the guestroom. This wasn't how she wanted the night to end. She didn't know that she was ready to be intimate with Serkan yet but she knew that she wanted to be held by him while she slept. The other night she felt so safe and secure in his arms. Eda washed off her makeup and put on the shirt of his that she had taken from the closet earlier in the day. The door to his bedroom was partially open Eda could see him sitting up reading in bed.

Serkan noticed Eda in the doorway, she had on one of his shirts like she always used to wear, "Is something wrong Eda?"

"Could I come in?"

"Of course, did you need something?"

She was twisting the hem of the shirt making it shorter than it needed to be for his sanity, "Would it be okay if I slept in here with you? I don't know that I'm ready for everything yet but I do know that I slept better when you held me. If you don't want to I understand. It's a lot to ask."

His response was to hold up the covers on her side of the bed. Eda walked over and climbed in, "You're sure you don't mind?"

"I'm sure, holding you on the sofa the other night was the best sleep I've had in weeks. Go to sleep."

Eda made herself comfortable and quickly fell back to sleep. Serkan watched her, it was nothing new. Since their first night together he had often watched her sleep wondering how he had gotten so lucky to have her love him. Things were different right now, he still felt a bit hollow inside but maybe there was hope. He didn't see himself giving up on Eda but he wasn't sure that she wouldn't give up on them. Serkan went back to reading his book, trying to read until he was tired when he felt Eda's hand on his waist grabbing onto his shirt. She had done this a few times before, unconscious Eda remembered parts of her life even if conscious Eda didn't.

Serkan decided to give up reading and try to go to sleep. He leaned over and turned out the light, laying on his back staring at the ceiling with his hands behind his head he tried to clear his mind. Eda, in her sleep, sensing his change in positions fit herself against him with her head on his shoulder and her arm across his waist holding on tightly. Serkan slowly brought his arms down so he could hold her to him. He finally relaxed into sleep.

Her dreams were confusing, she was standing in a mirror with a 'Bride' headband and Serkan was standing behind her smiling. The dream morphed into her wearing a wedding dress watching television screaming for Serkan, screaming 'NO' and then screaming 'tell me it's not true' at Fifi. Eda was talking and thrashing in her sleep, she woke Serkan when she called his name, then he heard the rest. She was dreaming of their first wedding, the plane crash. Eda was crying, 'we have to find him, why can't we find him?'.