A conversation with the silence (Part 1)

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So, this story is dedicated to a nice man called Lawrence.. 'I hope you don't go through this ever and wish you an amzaing life'!

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Catherine....

    ......We'll do it all

          Everything

          On our own.......

            You said we would do it together. Everything. You said it was us against the world then why did you lie. Why? 

    ......We don't need

          Anything

         Or anyone......

        My dear, you don't know how much I love you. Sometimes it sounds crazy. The neigbours glare at our house sometimes because they think I am crazy. I think I am. But I like talking to this silence. Its like I am talking to you except there is no 'you', there is none of your sweet voice or contagious laughter. Is it me or the wind that makes me love you like that? I don't know dear, I will never know. 

      I am on a street now. I think you remember this street don't you? I remember we watched The Notebook for the first time and you really wanted to lie on a street, like Noah and Allie did. It was the night of our first aniversary. It was June 25th, a hot summer evening. I remember you jumping on the pavement after watching the movie. You told me how much you loved Noah and Allie. I couldn't keep my eyes off you. You are like a magnet. It's just so hard. Finally, you convinced me to lie down on the street with you. 

     ......If I lay here

           If I just lay here

          Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

          Forget what we're told

          Before we get too old

          Show me a garden that's bursting into life......

       I think we did, untill the police man came. I never got to tell you how much I enjoyed that, lying on the cold ground with you looking at the stars. I enjoy everything. Absolutely everything with you.

        Catherine, sometimes I pray to God to bring you back. I don't know I believe you will come back. I have not given away your clothes. I have kept them. I am not giving it away. I love you, I  really do...

    ......Let's waste time

         Chasing cars

         Around our heads

          I need your grace

         To remind me

         To find my own......

       I loved those morning when you didn't let me go to work and mornings when you woke me up with a kiss. I loved our useless conversations and days which we only spent in our bed watching Notebook on Netflix. I loved the way you used to say my name 

"Lawrence..", every syllable correct. It was perfect coming from your mouth. I don't know what to say. I am still walking on the street and I don't know where I 'll go tonight. Tonight is a full moon and the moon looks pretty big but I guess you know that because you are walking beside me. 

       Do you remember you said you wanted to go to Paris? Well I have gathered the money now I thought we would go this summer but then I guess now you can go wherever you like because now you are invisible, you are silence. 

     ......All that I am

           All that I ever was

           Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

           I don't know where

           Confused about how as well

           Just know that these things will never change for us at all.....

        You said you loved me. You said you would never leave me, but you did. You said I was perfect. No, without you I am not. I am nothing. But tonight, I think I 'll lie down on this street and imagine you beside me because thats all I can do. And I will smile because I know you will lie down beside me. My dear Catherine..

    ......If I lay here

          If I just lay here

          Would you lie with me and just forget the world?......

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Dear Readers, 

     This was a little crappy...sorry! Tell me what did you think.. Advice, feedbacks are welcome. Vote please!!!!!

Thanks, 

Much love,

Bharbi xXx

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