~the manager ~ P.F

seven.

I still wasn't announcing my pregnancy till 12 weeks but I had told my family and friends.

Today was when we were flying out to Germany for the next England game. Phil stayed over last night for the first time ever (sober).

I woke up on his chest and a smile on my face. He hadn't asked me to be his girlfriend but I felt like we were, we acted like it anyway.

My packing was done and so was Phil's and it was waiting in the front room. Our flight was at 3:00pm today and it was currently 10:30am so I started getting ready then called the minibus to pick us all up.

In one bus was me, Phil,jack,Sasha, Trent and his girlfriend Grace.

The others were full of everyone else.

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The flight was calm and peaceful and we finally were in Germany.

The boys were allowed to sleep just for tonight then full training  tomorrow and game the next day.

Me and Phil spent the night in my room watching Netflix on my laptop and chilling.

Before I knew it I was alone in bed with a piece of paper beside me in place of Phil.

At training sorry I had to leave you come round at like 12 x

I met with Sasha and we got cups of teas and chilled before it got to 12 and we made our way to the training place.

Me and Sash drove straight to the training place and I decided to visit Mason cos I hadn't seen him in so long. I walked over to him and he was talking to Jack and Declan.

"Hey guys!" I said and hugged them all each individually. Me and Mase walked outside and sat on the grass for a bit.

"Are you ok with me and Phil, Mase?" I asked.

"It came as a shock but I haven't got a problem with it. I'm just really happy for you," he said and looked away. I brushed it off and we went back inside.

I went to find Phil but he was in a meeting with Gareth so I just sat with Sasha and Jack. "Hi, yous alright ?" I asked and sat down beside them.

"Ye were good," Sash said and put her head down, 'What was up with everyone today?' I thought to myself and found Phil again walking out Gareth's office.

"Hey babe!" I shouted. He turned around and hugged me really tightly.

"Hiya you ok?" He asked. "Ye I've been good just long day can't wait to have a nice shower, how's training been today?" I asked whilst stroking his head.

He put his arms round my waist, "Been good feel like I'm ready for the game tomorrow," he said and smiled.

I let him get back to training because he wanted to have a game of football with the boys. He shouted Jack over and Sash was left sat by herself.

I walked over and could see small tears fall from her face. I sat down and asked her what was wrong. "I-I lost the baby, Natalie I lost it.."