~the manager ~ P.F

eight.

"W-what?" I said and she looked at me with deep regret in her eyes.

We walked back to her room and she showed me the blood-stained sheets.

"Sash.." I said tearing up. She started violently sobbing and I grabbed her before falling to the floor. "Why? What did I do to deserve this?" She said through tears.

"It's a cruel thing but you did nothing wrong absolutely nothing!" I said and started to cry. I cleaned up her room and got hotel staff to bring up a new sheet. I gave her some of my fluffy pjs and tucked her into bed. I left the room for a second to call Jack telling him he needed to come now. He came as soon as he could and I let Sasha tell him.

I left and found Phil and broke down crying in his arms. "Phil, Sash lost the baby," I said softly into his chest.

He grasped me tightly and kissed my forehead. "It's ok, I got you," he said and carried me into our room.

I put myself in the shower and put on some blue silk pjs. He gave me his jumper and we jumped in the bed and cuddled until we fell asleep.

We woke up and we saw the post that Sasha and Jack put on their page. I didn't want to get myself stressed or worried about it but Jack was ruled out of training for a few days to wrap his head round everything. We understood and got ourselves ready.

I arranged to meet Sasha at the end of training and go back to meet Phil after. Kick-off for the game was 8:00pm so Phil and the boys had serious training to do and I left them to it.

I excused myself to the office and uploaded a post about match details on our socials.

I checked about team details and injuries and decided to call Mason Mount in as his injury should be clearing up. He came in and I updated the team sheets, allowing him to start or play in the games.

"Alright Mason, how's physio been?" I asked typing on the computer.

"It's been going well my ankle seems to be getting better," he said and twisted his ankle.

"Alright ok, do you feel you could play in a game?" I asked and looked at him.

"Umm I think I could manage I'll give it a go in training today," he said.

"Good, I'll give Terry a nod to keep you on watch and he'll report back to me," I said and stood up to walk him out. I closed off the computer and went to find Gareth to tell him the news.

"Hey Harry have you seen Gareth anywhere?" I said and he pointed over to the kitchen, "Making a brew I think," he said and walked outside to the training pitches.

I found him talking to Terry, performance manager of the team and walked over and sat with them.

"Oh Gareth, Mason Mount?" I said and he nodded, "Ankle feeling better, less swollen, Terry could you  keep an eye on him while he's playing today, needing his fitness back," I said and laughed.

"Will do, love," he said and went back to his tea.

I went out to the training pitches and gave Mason the go.

While Phil was training with everyone I decided to lock the office and run out to see Sasha and Jack. I jumped in the taxi and used my keycard to get out.

I got a taxi to our hotel and walked up to their room. "Sash, Jack?" I said whilst knocking on the door. Jack opened it and I hugged him straight away.

"Hey, I was hoping I could see you," he said in a low monotone voice. I walked in to find sash on the bed, clearly still beside herself.

I sat down in front of them and we watched a few films while eating a load of junk food, hoping to see a smile on their faces.

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I checked my phone, it was 6:32. "Guys I better get going, need to get ready for the match." I said and hugged them goodbye.

"Love you Sash," was all I managed to get out as I looked at her mascara stained face.

I drove back to the training grounds and told Phil I needed to go back to get changed, he decided to stay and play T-touch with Kyle.

"Be quick!" He warned and I waved him goodbye.

I drove back to my room and put on some ripped jeans and Phil's England shirt. It was the first time I was wearing it and I thought it was a good occasion.

I curled my hair into loose curls to fall and did a natural makeup look considering it was extremely warm.

Then I went to a coffee shop and got a tea and phoned for a taxi to the training grounds.

I met Phil there and we got on the coach together.

We were sat at the back with Bukayo and his girlfriend, Amelie.

I knew her from when I was a barmaid at a local pub when we were 18 and 19.

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*this has been updated*