After the storm [Finished]

Extra 2: To you

"Let's break up", said she. I dropped my fork surprised and confused.

"What are you talking about?" I asked. Her words echoed in my head, but I couldn't assimilate them.

"I think it's the best for us right now". She looked at me cautiously.

What was Alex talking about? Good for who?

"Are you serious?"

"Yeah, I'm dead serious". I had mixed feelings; I was confused, mad, and sad at the same time.

I tried talking things out. There was no way I could agree to break up without any reason. Did I do something bad? Did I say something wrong? Maybe it was because I kept talking and meeting Brittany behind her back, did she find out by herself again? I had to meet her because of work lately, but there was nothing I could do about that, and I couldn't find the right time to tell her I had a couple of shoots with her.

However, there was no Brittany in Alex's words; there was Alexander instead. Alex talking about Alex, it's funny if you think about it like that. But no, there was Alexa talking about my ex-boyfriend Alexander... The things she said didn't get into me at that moment, I really thought "But I've been doing better since I'm with her"; so I told her I still could work on everything being with her, but I was thinking selfishly.

I saw her troubled while explaining the reasoning behind her decision, I really, really, couldn't agree but I couldn't force her to stay with me either. I knew Alex was struggling with a lot of things, I felt guilty about topping it up with myself. Then, if giving her time was going to help, I would do that.

Even though I said that at first, the more I thought about it during the week, the less I liked the idea of letting her go. What if she didn't return? It was the second time in my life I fell for someone, there was no way I could give up so easily.

After a hectic week, I got Friday free. I wanted to talk again with Alex but when I woke up she was already gone to work. I had to wait the entire day to see her at home again. I kept thinking and thinking but I couldn't see how being apart was going to help either of us. I admit that I pressured her into eating when I saw she had not been having proper meals in a row, she told me not to do that but I worried. But I could not do that again, I was going to shut my mouth.

In the end, I went for a walk in Central Park and spent almost the whole day walking around aimlessly, thinking and trying not to think at the same time. I went out to clear up and distract myself a little bit and ended up getting home even more clueless and tired. I ended up getting asleep while trying to sort my thoughts out.

I woke up around 7 p.m.

"Alex should be back already", I thought. I got up and went to her room, and knock at her door before getting in.

"Hi, were you at home this whole time?", she asked.

"I've been in my room since noon".

"Ah..." She looked a bit tired.

"Are you done?" I asked seeing her packing some stuff.

"Yeah". I looked around, the room felt empty without her drawings and paints glued to the walls or leaning on them. "All the other things are in my car already". I nodded. The sudden realization that she was really leaving hit me.

"Where are you going to stay?"

"I'll be at Kayla's for a while". She closed the suitcase and walked toward the door. I didn't want her to leave, so I grabbed her hand.

"I know he talked about it already, but I can't agree with this". Her eyes showed that I was troubling her again. "I'll do whatever it takes so... Please, don't leave". I tried to say it in the calmest way possible but my voice cracked at the end of the phrase.