Closure || crb

seventeen

I was nervously waiting for Hayden to come over. I had no idea what he wanted to talk about.

I made Colby come over, but park a couple houses away. He's currently hiding out upstairs with Maya.

I was in the living room, pacing for what could happen. I heard a knock on the door which made me turn around.

Hayden was standing on the other side of the door. I waved him in so he stepped inside.

He looked around for a moment, I studied his face. His black eye was pretty dark while he had cuts on his face.

He looked pretty rough. "Hey." I softly say. He deeply sighs while we sit on my couch.

It was awkwardly quiet. "I uh, wanted to talk about what happened. You know, I feel bad for what happened." I look at him with furrowed eyebrows.

"So, you're apologizing?" I question, I just want him to say it. "Yeah, I'm sorry." He apologized.

"Okay, I don't forgive you." He looked shocked that I said that. He was taken back for a moment.

"Ren, I said I was sorry." He repeated his words. I just shrug towards him. "Yeah, and I don't forgive you." I repeat.

I wanna forgive him, but not right now. I just can't. He's hurt me and Colby, and publicly humiliated me.

"I'm not giving you closure. You don't get that." I tell him. It sounded harsh but I needed to tell him that.

He's the one who shut me out when Colby and I started talking again, and then writes a song about me.

I mean, the song is good, but I got hate from it. "Ren, please. What I did was stupid. I've done everything I could." He spoke.

I laughed a little bit. "Then why didn't you call me back for those two weeks?" I call him out.

"You know how it hurt when Colby shut me out and then you go and do the same thing?" I could tell my words were hurting him a little bit.

He wiped a tear from his face. "I'm an idiot. I had no right. Hopefully one day you'll forgive me." He looked around for a moment and stood up.

Before walking out, he turned to look at me. "You're in love with him, aren't you?" He asked making me gasp.

I've never thought about it like that. Colby and I were never together long enough for us to say those words.

I haven't thought if I was in love with him with everything else going on. I mean, it does make sense.

Maybe that's why I always want to protect him. Maybe that's why we found a way back to each other.

Maybe we were right people wrong timing. Maybe we finally got the timing right.

He sighed when he realized I wasn't gonna answer. "You two were obviously meant for each other. I was just too late." He sadly tells me.

He looks at me for a moment as I stand there, speechless. He walks out of the house while I stand there for a moment.

I turn around to see Colby walking down the steps. I wonder if he heard any of it, especially the last part.

"Everything okay?" He asked as I nodded my head towards him. He didn't try to hit me or anything, he was calm and collected.

I nodded my head a little bit towards him. I wanna be friends with Hayden, he's a big part of my life.

He's known me my whole life, just for it to come to this. I nodded my head towards him. He walked over towards me and embraced me in his arms.

We stood there for a moment, holding each other. It felt good being in his arms.

He somehow always made me feel safe, even when we first started talking.

"Get a room, losers." Maya joked a little bit as she walked in. I thought about what we could do for the rest of the day.

I gasped as I thought about it. "We should invite everyone over and have a Mario Kart competition." I tell them.

I think it'll be really fun to get them over so we can do it. They agreed so we texted everyone and they were all down.

They said they would be here within the next hour or two. I was honestly excited for it.

We grabbed a piece of paper so we could sort everyone's name out for the tournament.

Sam and Kat came here first. They started talking about how excited we are for this tournament.

As Maya hooked up the switch to the living room tv, Devyn and Xepher walked in.

We showed everyone who was going to play first. Sadly we did have an odd amount of people so Devyn said she would referee.

Xepher and Maya were up first so they both picked their characters. Watching them play was honestly super funny.

Even though the group broke up, I'm happy I still have these people in my life.

They all helped me grow out of my shell. If it wasn't for Devyn, I wouldn't have met anyone.

If I wanted to go to a party and have a good time, then I'm for sure calling Xepher.

She's always down for an adventure. Kat's the person I go to when I want a chill night.

I spent so many nights watching The Vampire Diaries with her.

Sam's the person I go to when I need someone to talk to. He's always been super sweet and he knows what to say in certain situations.

Maya, my little sister. She's been through a lot for someone her age, but I'm happy that she's pushed through.

I feel blessed that I have her in my life. Then, there's Colby. He's the one I felt the strongest connection with him.

Even when we shut each other out, I had a strong connection to him. He understands me.

It's kinda like we were meant for each other. I wish I was there for him when he got arrested.

I'm just happy that I'm here for him now. If it wasn't for Devyn taking me to that party, I wouldn't have met everyone.

I'm very thankful for her. We all hung out for most of the day, playing Mario Kart.

After we played Mario Kart, Maya beat everyone, we ordered a pizza and watched a movie.

I was so happy that we could be together and hang out like old times.

It does make me wish Corey and Jake were there too. They were such a big part of the group, it would be nice to have them here.

I wish Hayden wouldn't have done a lot of the shit he did either. I wish he would just talk to me and let me explain.

But he never did let me explain. He just let his anger have a hold over him.

Once everyone left, it was just me, Colby, and Maya. Maya had gone to her room to fall asleep while we stayed on the couch.

Colby had his head on my lap while we watched a random Netflix reality show. "Do you care if I stay the night? If not, it's okay." He sounded hopeful.

I smiled to myself while agreeing that he could stay over. Tomorrow, since we didn't have plans, we were going to the beach.

While I got ready the next morning, Colby left so he could grab his swimming trunks.

I told him I would pick him up so he wouldn't have to drive back to my house.

I piled everything in my car and headed off to his house. Once I get there, I text him I'n here and he jogs out and climb in.

I'm so happy that we were able to go out and do things without the fans beating my ass since they finally like us together.

When we get to the beach, we picked out a spot and laid everything out.

As I sprayed the sunblock on, Colby ran out in the ocean. I couldn't help but smile as I watched him.

Maybe Hayden is right, maybe I do love him.

•the end•