Better Beginnings 💞

9 - Crossroads of the Heart

As I approached Elena, I noticed Noah swiftly making his exit. Was he running for his duties or from me, avoiding the aftermath of yesterday's events? Regardless, I resolved to keep my distance from Noah, even if it proved to be the most challenging task I'd ever faced. "

S, Hey...Sadie..SADIEE," Elena called out to me persistently, but my mind was preoccupied with thoughts of Noah, deeming them of utmost importance.

"Oh, Hi. Sorry, I was not ... uhm ... I guess paying attention?" I responded, my mind still lingering on Noah despite Elena's attempts to pull me back to reality.

"What has happened to you, Sadie? You are behaving weirdly, and even Noah too. Did something happen?" Elena inquired, her concern evident in her voice as she noticed the shift in my behavior.

"Noah? Oh, what was he talking to you about anyways? I saw him when I came, but he ran away seeing me, I guess," I said, attempting to divert the conversation away from my own thoughts about Noah.

"He was asking about you, S. If you are okay, if you shared anything with me, and every sort of question like that," Elena explained, her concern evident in her voice.

"Oh, okay. What did you tell him then?" I asked Elena, curious about her response.

"I just told him that you were fine and didn't share anything with me. I hope that's okay," Elena replied, looking at me with a mix of curiosity and concern.

"Yeah, that's more than fine E, Thank you for backing me up," I expressed gratefully.

"You're welcome, Sadie. You know I've always got your back," Elena said reassuringly, offering a supportive smile.

"You're absolutely amazing," I said, wrapping my arms around her in a hug.

"Well, I am amazing, but not that much, S. You need to tell me what happened between you two. I clearly missed something, and I need to know NOW," Elena demanded, her tone tinged with frustration.

"It's so complicated, Elena. I don't even know where to start," I replied, my voice trailing off uncertainly.

"It's me, Sadie. You can begin from any point, whether it's the beginning or the main issue. I don't mind, but please, anything? Because it's affecting both of you, which I don't want. Regardless of who Noah is, he's human, and you're my favorite person. So please, share, Sadie. We'll work through it together, okay?" Elena said, offering reassurance.\

"Thanks, Elena. You're always so understanding," I replied. "Okay, here's what happened..."

I confided in Elena, recounting every detail from my ill-advised confession to Noah's clear rejection, holding nothing back. Tears welled up in my eyes, but with Elena's support, I managed to maintain composure. Noah's rejection echoed in my thoughts, bringing back the heartbreak and tears. It was a pain I never imagined experiencing. People always suggested finding a boyfriend, and getting into a relationship. But I resisted, never wanting to face the possibility of this exact outcome. Yet here I stand, at a crossroads, torn between two paths: forget Noah and everything that transpired, or perpetually harbor this one-sided love, resigned to a life of longing and unfulfilled affection.

"I am Sorry, Sadie, but how did you find yourself confessing to him? It seemed rather sudden and, if I may say, a bit inappropriate as well, Sadie," Elena expressed, her astonishment evident.

"I... I don't know, Elena. I talked to Ruby, and she suggested that I should just confess. She seemed so casual about it, so I thought I should just go ahead and say it," I replied, my uncertainty was evident.

Elena listened to my explanation with a mix of empathy and concern etched on her face.

"Well, Ruby has her way of seeing things, but sometimes her advice can be a bit... unconventional," she started, choosing her words carefully. "But you know, in a way, she was right. Sometimes, you just need to let it all out and take a chance. But Sadie, you have this habit of overthinking things. You let your mind spiral into this endless loop of 'what ifs'."